Well husband left for flight school yesterday. He will be back on May 24th. I'm not gonna lie, I'm sad right now. Not just the fact that that I'm alone with two children, but just not being able to see my husband for a month. Not being able to talk and joke with him. When pilots are in flight school, they have VERY long days and it's VERY stressful for them. And while of course I will get to talk to him on the phone, it's usually pretty short conversations. So that's the saddest part for me at least. It's hard to stay connected under the circumstances.
But I'm also happy that today is day 1 of my one month eating healthy challenge. If you didn't get a chance to read my earlier post, I am going to take all my energy and focus it on eating healthy and exercising while husband is gone. Except for the energy spent on my kids of course. So I'm ready for it. Knowing I was going to start this today, I sort of went balls out this past weekend. Pizza, pasta... you name it. I feel absolutely disgusting today. Which in a weird way is good, because I don't even have a desire to eat anything but healthy foods.
I had one of my 5K races yesterday morning. Now I have taken over a month off of running, due to the pinched nerve in my butt issue I was having. So on Friday I decided to go for a light run, just to see where I was at. I speed walked an entire mile before I even started jogging, just to make sure I was warmed up. But by the end of the first mile, I could totally feel the pinched nerve and it started to get painful. ARGH!!!!!!! I was VERY frustrated. I have a doctor's appointment for it at the end of May, so I guess I am just going to wait for that and see what's up. It's not like I was going to get in a lot of running anyway with husband gone.
So for the 5K, which I did with a good friend, we decided we were going to speed walk the thing. We jogged the first half mile and then started our speed walking. Now I've done speed walking to warm up for a jog before, but I've honestly never just speed walked for 3 miles. And I've got to say, it is HARD. Like, I was breathing heavy, sweating, the works. AND I'm sore today from it! Those speed walkers are really onto something. AND this is something I can actually do with all my crazy injuries. So I'm happy to have found a good alternative workout while I'm healing. Hopefully I can get a few in, while husband is gone.
My mother-in-law is coming to stay with me, not this weekend but next weekend (May 11-13). So I should be able to get some good workouts in while she's here. When she leaves on that Sunday, she is going to take S home with her. And then I won't see S until Thursday after work. Four whole days... I might have a heart attack. But it will be a nice break to just have one child for a few days. It will be interesting to see how J reacts to his sister being gone. As much as they fight, they are best buddies too. And they've never really been apart too much. They ususally go places together, so we'll see.
Ok, LOTS of work to get done. Happy and more importantly, HEALTHY Monday for me today!
-V
Monday, April 30, 2012
Friday, April 27, 2012
Day 3
Day # 3 and I am dressed and ready to work out, lets just hope that I can actually make it out the door today. I have the best intentions each day, I swear I do its just that I cannot always find the willpower time to actually pull it together and go. Today is a new day and I swear I'm going to do it!
I am feeling a lot better and I think that my mom gets to go home from the hospital today - fingers crossed!! It's crazy, I don't think I've ever thought about my mothers bathroom habits this much in my life but I PRAYING and WILLING her to go #2 so she can go home - just gross really. Oh well, the joys of parenthood and the hard part of watching your parents get older and sometimes get sick. Tough stuff.
Anywhoo - busy and fun weekend ahead. E has now announced he will be making a clam risotto and I should be ready for a super yummy meal (ok, so maybe HE didn't necessarily use those words but OMG it does sounds ever so super yummy). E is a great cook when he wants to be so I'm really looking forward to this. He also announced that he and B will be watching the hockey game - which means I will have good downtime. I am going to try and not have a glass of wine this weekend, I have been stuck at 128 for like 6 days now and I need to break that number something fierce. I know the best way for me to get back to the low 20's is to stop drinking for a bit, I have the eating down - that's not my problem its the damn weekend wine and my non-commitment to exercise. Will try very hard this weekend to be good. Send good positive thoughts my web friends and have a fabulousssssss weekend!
-a
I am feeling a lot better and I think that my mom gets to go home from the hospital today - fingers crossed!! It's crazy, I don't think I've ever thought about my mothers bathroom habits this much in my life but I PRAYING and WILLING her to go #2 so she can go home - just gross really. Oh well, the joys of parenthood and the hard part of watching your parents get older and sometimes get sick. Tough stuff.
Anywhoo - busy and fun weekend ahead. E has now announced he will be making a clam risotto and I should be ready for a super yummy meal (ok, so maybe HE didn't necessarily use those words but OMG it does sounds ever so super yummy). E is a great cook when he wants to be so I'm really looking forward to this. He also announced that he and B will be watching the hockey game - which means I will have good downtime. I am going to try and not have a glass of wine this weekend, I have been stuck at 128 for like 6 days now and I need to break that number something fierce. I know the best way for me to get back to the low 20's is to stop drinking for a bit, I have the eating down - that's not my problem its the damn weekend wine and my non-commitment to exercise. Will try very hard this weekend to be good. Send good positive thoughts my web friends and have a fabulousssssss weekend!
-a
Thursday, April 26, 2012
My Life Through the Years...
So I got one of these cheesy email quiz's today from a friend, and since I've got nothing for you, I thought I'd post it here too:
YOUR LIVE THROUGH THE YEARS:
Elementary School:
• What did you want to be when you grew up? I wanted to be a soap opera actress sooooo bad. I used to write the actor's letters and include my photo in case they "ever needed anyone."
• Favorite toy? Had to be Barbi's. My sister and I would literally get up on a Saturday/Sunday mornings and play Barbi's, in our jammies, until my mom called us for lunch. Then we'd go right back to it until dinner time. I can only pray that my children will be this enthralled with a toy that they will be occupied all dayand leave me alone.
• Did you ever want to change your name? Yes I HATED my name as a child. Well, remember the comic Family Circus? Well the daughter's name was Dolly and boy did I want to change my name to that. In every play situation, my name HAD to be Dolly. Sure glad that you aren't able to legally change stuff like when you are young. I can't imagine walking into a job interview today and introducing myself as Dolly.
• What silly thing did you fantasize about? Funny you should ask because I was OBSESSED with having a tail when I was little. My sister and I would scotch tape pairs of tights to our butts and pretend they were our tails... man we were strange little kids.
• Did you ever run away? Yes, one day when I was about 10, my brother convinced me to 'run away' with him. We packed our bags and told my mom we were out of there. So we hung out in the woods behind our house for a while. But as it started to get dark I got scared and told my brother I was going back inside. He was pretty mad at me, but I left him anyway. I guess eventually he made his way back home. Now that I'm a parent, I feel really bad for telling my mom we were doing this. I think I would cry if my kids said this to me.
Junior High:
• How old where you when you had your first "real" kiss? 13 and the guy totally french kissed me. I'd never heard of this before and freaked out and started laughing, mid kiss. Needless to say, this guy did not become my boyfriend.
• Did you have to wear a uniform to school? Well since we moved from Connecticut to Arizona when I was in Junior High, I went to 2 schools during this time. Yes I wore a uniform in Connecticut since I went to a private school. But in Arizona, I went to a public school.
• Were you popular? Well again, since I switched schools midway through, I have 2 answers. Yes in my first school. Soooo totally not in my 2nd school.
High School:
• What group were you a part of in High School? I was probably considered an athlete. I did most sports, but basketball was my main one.
• Were you ever mean to someone in school? Yes, and to this day I feel guilty about it. When I was a freshman in high school I met this girl named Becky. She was soooooo sweet and nice. Well my brother was a Senior at the time and he told me that I couldn't be friends with Becky if I wanted to be "cool" in high school. He said she would bring me down and I had to ditch her, so I did. I still remember the phone call she made to me asking if she had done anything wrong. GOD, I was such an a-hole! I'm SOOOOO sorry Becky!
• Is there something you wish you would have done differently? Well I'm sure everyone thinks this, but I just wish I hadn't cared so much about what everyone thought. I spent so much time worrying and pretending to be "cool."
• How many boyfriends did you have? Um I only had 2 that were technically 'boyfriend' status.
• First jobs? McDonald's cashier when I was 14. Cashier in the food court at Smitty's at 15 (which I was fired from for giving a friend a discount on a Coke). Retails Sales at Ross when I was 16. Retail Sales for County Seat when I was 17. I think most of those stores, except for McDonald's, don't even exist anymore.
College:
• How old were you when you lost your virginity? 20
• Were you in a Sorority? Yes I was and it was awesome. I know there are a lot of negative things said about fraternities and sororities. But I had nothing but wonderful experiences. And some of my best friends today are girls I met from my sorority (including A).
• Did you go to the college of your choice? Actually no. I wanted to go to Western Michigan University, but my dad was convinced it was a "party" school. So instead I chose Eastern Michigan University, because my brother was going there.
• Where did you live freshman year? I lived in the dorms in a room that was almost the size if my current bathroom. My roommate smoked pot all day and night and it was SO annoying.
Your 20's:
• Farthest from home you've ever been? Ireland
• Where did you live after you graduated from college? Well a few friends and I (including A) all decided we were going to move to a town that was known for being the "it" town for 20-somethings. It had tons of bars and cool things to do. We rented a house smack downtown and I probably had the most fun I've ever had in my life during those years. I wouldn't change my 20's for anything in the world.
• Did you meet your future husband? Yes, I actually met husband at work. We had worked in the same place for about 3 years before we actually ever spoke. I had seen him in the gym a lot, but assumed like most of the men at that corporation, he was older and married. Then one night I saw him at the bar and we started talking and that was that. About 6 months after I met him, he quit his job at that company and decided he wanted to become a pilot instead.
• Did you get married? Well technically I was 30 when I got married, but yes.
• Did you have children? Nope, didn't have J until I was 33.
• Did you buy your first home? Nope again. Didn't buy my first home until I was 30. Husband owned his house when we first met, but he sold that to pay for flight school.
Happy Friday all!
-V
YOUR LIVE THROUGH THE YEARS:
Elementary School:
• What did you want to be when you grew up? I wanted to be a soap opera actress sooooo bad. I used to write the actor's letters and include my photo in case they "ever needed anyone."
• Favorite toy? Had to be Barbi's. My sister and I would literally get up on a Saturday/Sunday mornings and play Barbi's, in our jammies, until my mom called us for lunch. Then we'd go right back to it until dinner time. I can only pray that my children will be this enthralled with a toy that they will be occupied all day
• Did you ever want to change your name? Yes I HATED my name as a child. Well, remember the comic Family Circus? Well the daughter's name was Dolly and boy did I want to change my name to that. In every play situation, my name HAD to be Dolly. Sure glad that you aren't able to legally change stuff like when you are young. I can't imagine walking into a job interview today and introducing myself as Dolly.
• What silly thing did you fantasize about? Funny you should ask because I was OBSESSED with having a tail when I was little. My sister and I would scotch tape pairs of tights to our butts and pretend they were our tails... man we were strange little kids.
• Did you ever run away? Yes, one day when I was about 10, my brother convinced me to 'run away' with him. We packed our bags and told my mom we were out of there. So we hung out in the woods behind our house for a while. But as it started to get dark I got scared and told my brother I was going back inside. He was pretty mad at me, but I left him anyway. I guess eventually he made his way back home. Now that I'm a parent, I feel really bad for telling my mom we were doing this. I think I would cry if my kids said this to me.
Junior High:
• How old where you when you had your first "real" kiss? 13 and the guy totally french kissed me. I'd never heard of this before and freaked out and started laughing, mid kiss. Needless to say, this guy did not become my boyfriend.
• Did you have to wear a uniform to school? Well since we moved from Connecticut to Arizona when I was in Junior High, I went to 2 schools during this time. Yes I wore a uniform in Connecticut since I went to a private school. But in Arizona, I went to a public school.
• Were you popular? Well again, since I switched schools midway through, I have 2 answers. Yes in my first school. Soooo totally not in my 2nd school.
High School:
• What group were you a part of in High School? I was probably considered an athlete. I did most sports, but basketball was my main one.
• Were you ever mean to someone in school? Yes, and to this day I feel guilty about it. When I was a freshman in high school I met this girl named Becky. She was soooooo sweet and nice. Well my brother was a Senior at the time and he told me that I couldn't be friends with Becky if I wanted to be "cool" in high school. He said she would bring me down and I had to ditch her, so I did. I still remember the phone call she made to me asking if she had done anything wrong. GOD, I was such an a-hole! I'm SOOOOO sorry Becky!
• Is there something you wish you would have done differently? Well I'm sure everyone thinks this, but I just wish I hadn't cared so much about what everyone thought. I spent so much time worrying and pretending to be "cool."
• How many boyfriends did you have? Um I only had 2 that were technically 'boyfriend' status.
• First jobs? McDonald's cashier when I was 14. Cashier in the food court at Smitty's at 15 (which I was fired from for giving a friend a discount on a Coke). Retails Sales at Ross when I was 16. Retail Sales for County Seat when I was 17. I think most of those stores, except for McDonald's, don't even exist anymore.
College:
• How old were you when you lost your virginity? 20
• Were you in a Sorority? Yes I was and it was awesome. I know there are a lot of negative things said about fraternities and sororities. But I had nothing but wonderful experiences. And some of my best friends today are girls I met from my sorority (including A).
• Did you go to the college of your choice? Actually no. I wanted to go to Western Michigan University, but my dad was convinced it was a "party" school. So instead I chose Eastern Michigan University, because my brother was going there.
• Where did you live freshman year? I lived in the dorms in a room that was almost the size if my current bathroom. My roommate smoked pot all day and night and it was SO annoying.
Your 20's:
• Farthest from home you've ever been? Ireland
• Where did you live after you graduated from college? Well a few friends and I (including A) all decided we were going to move to a town that was known for being the "it" town for 20-somethings. It had tons of bars and cool things to do. We rented a house smack downtown and I probably had the most fun I've ever had in my life during those years. I wouldn't change my 20's for anything in the world.
• Did you meet your future husband? Yes, I actually met husband at work. We had worked in the same place for about 3 years before we actually ever spoke. I had seen him in the gym a lot, but assumed like most of the men at that corporation, he was older and married. Then one night I saw him at the bar and we started talking and that was that. About 6 months after I met him, he quit his job at that company and decided he wanted to become a pilot instead.
• Did you get married? Well technically I was 30 when I got married, but yes.
• Did you have children? Nope, didn't have J until I was 33.
• Did you buy your first home? Nope again. Didn't buy my first home until I was 30. Husband owned his house when we first met, but he sold that to pay for flight school.
Happy Friday all!
-V
The Joys of Motherhood When You Are Sick
Well I'm still feeling a bit like crap. Yesterday was hard, I had a fever all day, that included total body aches and massive chills and my throat was on fire. But I prevailed. I had signed my kids up for 'art day' at Java Gym along with members from my Mom's group and I was determined to go. I'm glad I did, because the kids had a blast and it took my mind off of feeling so cruddy. They made bird feeders out of pine cones and peanut butter, which was really cute. J got his face painted (S wanted NOTHING to do with that) and then we played. S is still too little to go into the play area by herself, so I had to go crawling in there after her. It was quite the workout, especially feeling as bad as I did.
When we got home, after I fed the kids lunch and put them down for their naps I crawled into bed myself. I usually almost always workout when the kids are asleep, but that was just not happening. We all snuggled in my bed for a bit after they woke up. But that only lasted for one episode of Elmo and then they were off and running again. We hung their bird feeders outside and played for a bit.
Husband finally rolled in around 4:30pm and then I took off. I took a long hot shower, put my jammies on and crawled into bed. I tried to sleep but I swear every 4 minutes I would hear 'CRASH!... WAHHHHHH!... STOP!... NOOOOO!... BANG!' on and on an on. And I was laying there thinking, what in Lord's name is going on down there? Is husband even watching them? Then I started running all these worst-case scenarios in my head. My heart started racing and I could feel the adrenaline surging. So I tried to relax again. I closed my eyes. I breathed deeply. I was sooooo tired. Then another 'BAM... BOOM... WAHHHHH!'This was around this time I gave up on getting any sleep and turned on the tv and watched a total of 30 seconds of Real Housewives of New Jersey before J came in and started jumping on my bed asking to watch Bubble Guppies.... ahhhh, the joys of motherhood when you are sick.
Anyway, I am feeling a tad better today. My throat is still nasty but the fever, aches and chills are gone, so I'm on the mend. At the recomendation of A, I took some Zyrtec for my puffy eye and that stuff rocks! My eye was back to normal again! I woke up this morning with it puffy again and took another pill and it's already gone down. So I guess that answers my question about whether it's allergy related. But I am happy to have some stuff to make it go away now.
Only 4 days until husband leaves for flight school. The countdown begins...
-V
A New Day.
Amazing what 24 hours can do to your perspective.
I didn't end up going for a full blown walk yesterday but after dinner B, Crozzie and I took a nice stroll around the block. E came home in a something awful mood after a stressful day at work so I gave him the space and much needed downtime that he also hasn't had in forever. It was good.
I took the day yesterday and organized my office, did crazy back logged expense reports and got my lists and calendars in order. That alone lifted so much stress off of me that I was able to fully concentrate on the tasks at hand. I have been running so much and so fast these days that it's finally hit me that I am burned out. We have a super busy weekend ahead of us but its good family things so I am OK with that. Everything from B's first Karate lesson to the Touch-A-Truck even directly following with play dates and yoga on Sunday to top it off. I'm looking forward to reconnecting - we need it.
Also, my arm feels better - not great - but I can tell its healing and the bruise on my rear is something fierce! But better as well.
I talked with my mom yesterday and she sounds AWESOME - totally different that after the last surgery's and they are telling her she can go home on Friday! Fingers crossed all continues to go well!
Today I am dressed and walking Croz for sure!
Later Webbies!
a
I didn't end up going for a full blown walk yesterday but after dinner B, Crozzie and I took a nice stroll around the block. E came home in a something awful mood after a stressful day at work so I gave him the space and much needed downtime that he also hasn't had in forever. It was good.
I took the day yesterday and organized my office, did crazy back logged expense reports and got my lists and calendars in order. That alone lifted so much stress off of me that I was able to fully concentrate on the tasks at hand. I have been running so much and so fast these days that it's finally hit me that I am burned out. We have a super busy weekend ahead of us but its good family things so I am OK with that. Everything from B's first Karate lesson to the Touch-A-Truck even directly following with play dates and yoga on Sunday to top it off. I'm looking forward to reconnecting - we need it.
Also, my arm feels better - not great - but I can tell its healing and the bruise on my rear is something fierce! But better as well.
I talked with my mom yesterday and she sounds AWESOME - totally different that after the last surgery's and they are telling her she can go home on Friday! Fingers crossed all continues to go well!
Today I am dressed and walking Croz for sure!
Later Webbies!
a
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Positivity Please
I think I need to focus today on finding things that I am thankful for. Lately I have been so bad with eating and working out and it's affecting everything around me. Too often when slumps like this start its nothing but a downward spiral and the entire process just sucks the life out of me. Top it off, last night we were watching my SIL's dog for a bit and I tripped over it going down the stairs. I fell straight on my rear and snapped my arm back - how I didn't break it I'm not sure but man does it hurt today! So I will start with these (and that first and foremost):
Be healthy and happy my web-friends!
a
- I am thankful for not breaking my arm or doing more damage as I fell down the stairs last night
- I am thankful that I don't weigh 30lbs more and that I had the strength and courage to get the weight off and keep if off for this long
- I am thankful that my mom's surgery went well yesterday and she is on the road to recovery
- I am thankful to have a happy, healthy son and a loving husband
- I am thankful that while my job is super stressful right now, I have a job and a job that I typically really enjoy
- I am thankful that my son got my sense of humor, that little dude is hilarious
- I am thankful for my health
Be healthy and happy my web-friends!
a
Hey Baby I'm a Rock Star!
So I've been thinking about what I can concentrate on, while husband is gone at flight school for a month (besides my children of course). I don't want to become down and depressed. I don't want to take my loneliness out on food. And I don't want my exercise to go sh*t. SO, I had an idea last night. Why not take the entire month that husband is gone and concentrate solely on having a kick ass eating and working out month? Why not have husband walk back through our front door, one month later and be like WOW, my wife looks hot!
It's no secret that I've been a slacker on the eating lately. I haven't been logging my calories or carbs in over at www.myfitnesspal.com. And while I haven't been eating like total crap, I've certainly not been as good as I was a few months ago. And with all these crazy injuries (ie: elbow, pinched nerve in butt, root canal needed, etc.) I've been working out but not quite as much as I was.
So I think that for one month, I will be a rockstar with my eating and exercise. Obviously the exercise will be time permitting around being home alone with 2 children. But that's what's so great about Jillian's 30 Day Shred, its short but hard and fast.
So there you go folks. I can do this! I also think that by feeling good about myself it will help me to not get down while husband is gone. So, Monday, April 30 is 'Go Time' baby! And when husband gets back I will look like this:
-V
It's no secret that I've been a slacker on the eating lately. I haven't been logging my calories or carbs in over at www.myfitnesspal.com. And while I haven't been eating like total crap, I've certainly not been as good as I was a few months ago. And with all these crazy injuries (ie: elbow, pinched nerve in butt, root canal needed, etc.) I've been working out but not quite as much as I was.
So I think that for one month, I will be a rockstar with my eating and exercise. Obviously the exercise will be time permitting around being home alone with 2 children. But that's what's so great about Jillian's 30 Day Shred, its short but hard and fast.
So there you go folks. I can do this! I also think that by feeling good about myself it will help me to not get down while husband is gone. So, Monday, April 30 is 'Go Time' baby! And when husband gets back I will look like this:
Totally kidding!
-V
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Puffy Eye
To top off my day of feeling like crap, I've got this crazy swollen eyelid thing happening to me lately. Today was the worst's it been though. I am not sure if I have allergies or what. I've never really had them before. I haven't used any new products on my face lately. But when I wake up my eyelids are puffy and itchy. I can't even put eye makeup on. I used to have this problem when I live in Arizona, but haven't had it since I was probably 13. I just took the picture below of my eye to text to A, but thought I would share. Anyone ever have this?
Your puffy eye friend,
-V
Your puffy eye friend,
-V
Felling a Bit Defective Today...
Woke up today not feeling so hot. My throat is swollen, I've got the aches all over... doesn't look good for me. And why wouldn't I get sick right before husband leaves for flight school? At least I'm at work today and can sit on my butt all day. Send healthy vibes my way, k?
-V
-V
All Lit Up - Literally
Hello Web-Friends - A here, FINALLY!
5 weeks on the road and my life has been all kinds of bananas. I don't feel as though I've stopped for even one minute and I'm about to crash. Work has been absolutely crazy (in a good and bad way) and for the first time I'm not 100% loving it as I have in the past. I try to take situations like this and find the positives - which I usually can but sometimes (like now) it's super hard. Though I know the lesson will come, I'm anxious for it to get here - this is draining.
Where to start - well here is a good one. I am VERY "that time of the month" so I decided to grab my hubby's jeans which are typically hanging off my hips - not yesterday, skin tight. AWESOMENSS. I have been eating like a road hog. Things like, get ready for it, Bacon, Thyme and Truffle Oil Popcorn - this may sound absurd but it MAY have been the best thing I've had ever. We were at a dinner Saturday night with 3 other couples and the spread was unreal. That was just the tipping point, btw. I will not bore you with the details but wow - I sure need to slow it. Needless to say I am signing up for calorie count this morning (again) and getting back on track (again). Sweet.
Another thing that didn't help my waist line would be the bottle of wine I drank Friday night. We had some vendors at the house late providing a demonstration of what our house can look like with the proper lighting and it was GLORIOUS. E went to bed as he was so tired and I sat up drinking until midnight watching them work. I was in-the-bag by the time they left and oh, less I forget to mention that I, in a stupor, woke E up - asked if I could write them a check - wrote one for $3,000 (yes $3k) and committed to spending $8k. Didn'tremember know this until they sent the contract on Sunday. That provided some healthy conversation with E when we drove to a charity event that night. Needless to say we are now tweaking the design a bit...note to self, don't drink where money is involved.
Another day and I am off and running - pray I can keep myself in line for another 24 hours!!
-a
5 weeks on the road and my life has been all kinds of bananas. I don't feel as though I've stopped for even one minute and I'm about to crash. Work has been absolutely crazy (in a good and bad way) and for the first time I'm not 100% loving it as I have in the past. I try to take situations like this and find the positives - which I usually can but sometimes (like now) it's super hard. Though I know the lesson will come, I'm anxious for it to get here - this is draining.
Where to start - well here is a good one. I am VERY "that time of the month" so I decided to grab my hubby's jeans which are typically hanging off my hips - not yesterday, skin tight. AWESOMENSS. I have been eating like a road hog. Things like, get ready for it, Bacon, Thyme and Truffle Oil Popcorn - this may sound absurd but it MAY have been the best thing I've had ever. We were at a dinner Saturday night with 3 other couples and the spread was unreal. That was just the tipping point, btw. I will not bore you with the details but wow - I sure need to slow it. Needless to say I am signing up for calorie count this morning (again) and getting back on track (again). Sweet.
Another thing that didn't help my waist line would be the bottle of wine I drank Friday night. We had some vendors at the house late providing a demonstration of what our house can look like with the proper lighting and it was GLORIOUS. E went to bed as he was so tired and I sat up drinking until midnight watching them work. I was in-the-bag by the time they left and oh, less I forget to mention that I, in a stupor, woke E up - asked if I could write them a check - wrote one for $3,000 (yes $3k) and committed to spending $8k. Didn't
Another day and I am off and running - pray I can keep myself in line for another 24 hours!!
-a
Monday, April 23, 2012
Tentacles are Yummy?
We had quite the homecoming celebration on Friday night. Husband's sister and her family came over too, so we had a packed house with lots of wine and food and kids running around. My kids went to bed waaaaaaay too late and we paid for it dearly on Saturday with some very grumpy and over emotional children. But oh well.
So all in all it was a crazy busy, but fun weekend. One last hurrah before husband leaves for flight school this upcoming weekend. He's going to be in Texas from April 29th - May 23rd. My mother-in-law is going to take S for a few days the 3rd week he's gone. Then the final week he's gone, she's going to take J for a few days. So if I can just get through the first 2 weeks, I'll have a bit of a break with only having one child.
On a sour note, I took S to the doctor on Friday to get her ears checked since she had an ear infection when we went in for her routine check up a few weeks ago. She's now got a double ear infection. UGH! My poor girl has had nothing but ear infections lately, I feel so bad for her. I didn't even know either... bad mommy! Anyway, they think she should get tubes since she's had so many in a row. I know its for the best, but the thought of her having to be put under anesthesia for the quick procedure makes me nervous. The ENT (Ears Nose & Throat Doc) is supposed to call me this week with our appointment date. Unfortunately this will probably all go down while husband is away at flight school. Awesome!
I literally did NO workouts this weekend. I'm a sloth. I also ate like it was going out of style, so I'm feeling a bit gross today. In-laws are headed home today, so it's back on track for the week!
Happy Monday!
-V
Thursday, April 19, 2012
I Know I'm Getting Old When...
- I injure myself at the bounce house
- I can't make it out of the bedroom without waking up my husband because of my creaking ankles
- I look at the clock and it's 10pm and I think to myself "WOW, I'm up late tonight!"
- I'm "hung over" for days after taking one pain killer
- When people call me 'Ma'am" at the grocery store now
- When my husband complains to me how loud I've got the tv on
- I look forward to a dull evening
- I'm on a first name basis with my pharmacist
- I hear my favorite song on the elevator at work
- I yell at drivers for driving too fast down my street
- I need to wear my glasses every day I'm at work now
- My doctor is now younger than me
Man is sucks getting old! Happy Friday!
-V
My Ex Boyfriend's Doppelganger?
So as I mentioned yesterday, I went to the dentist for this AWFUL pain I've been having in my tooth. As I also mentioned, I am needing to get a root canal there. Since scheduling anything for myself is impossible hard due to husband's flight schedule and trying to find a babysitter, I am not able to do the root canal for several weeks. So in the meantime the dentist prescribed me some antibiotics and painkillers to get me through. Well I took one of the pain killers last night after the kids went to bed and holy crap, it knocked me on my butt! I wouldn't have taken it if husband hadn't been home, and thank God for that, because I can STILL feel it in my system this morning. Ugh, I hate that hang over type feeling you get from certain med's. So not quite sure what I'm going to do about the pain now. I do not want to feel like this every day until my root canal and am not comfortable taking one of these if husband is flying over night. But the pain is pretty intense, especially at night, so who knows.... ahhh, such a glamorous life I lead.
The dentist I went to yesterday was a new one. My insurance changed and my old dentist was no longer in my 'network' so I had to switch. This new dentist looked EXACTLY like my ex boyfriend. WEIRD! I dated this guy John for 4 years when I was in my early 20's. I almost married him actually, but thankfully I didn't. Not that he wasn't a nice guy, he just wasn't the one for me. But it was very strange having this man who looked just like John, all up in my mouth. I actually sent John a facebook message afterwards and told him I had met his doppelganger.
I started The Hunger Games the other day and I love it so far. I had to see what all the hype was about and I'm glad I did. If you've been reading my blog you already know my love of reading and watching anything about teenagers. Teen angst is my FAV! So this is right up my alley. I'm about halfway through already, hopefully I can finish it soon and get to see the movie before husband leaves for flight school on the 28th.
Ok, that's all I have for you today. I need to actually work today since I dicked around so much on Tuesday.
-V
The dentist I went to yesterday was a new one. My insurance changed and my old dentist was no longer in my 'network' so I had to switch. This new dentist looked EXACTLY like my ex boyfriend. WEIRD! I dated this guy John for 4 years when I was in my early 20's. I almost married him actually, but thankfully I didn't. Not that he wasn't a nice guy, he just wasn't the one for me. But it was very strange having this man who looked just like John, all up in my mouth. I actually sent John a facebook message afterwards and told him I had met his doppelganger.
I started The Hunger Games the other day and I love it so far. I had to see what all the hype was about and I'm glad I did. If you've been reading my blog you already know my love of reading and watching anything about teenagers. Teen angst is my FAV! So this is right up my alley. I'm about halfway through already, hopefully I can finish it soon and get to see the movie before husband leaves for flight school on the 28th.
Ok, that's all I have for you today. I need to actually work today since I dicked around so much on Tuesday.
-V
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Goods and Bads of My Day So Far
Good: Kids actually slept in this morning... on a day where I didn't work.. whoooo!
Bad: As soon as they woke up the fighting started... good times.
Good: Got a 'Bouce Card' to the Blast Factory (bounce house) from Groupon and we went to Tots Bounce today, it was SO fun. The kids loved it and man it's a workout!
Bad: Got reeeeeal sweaty from bouncing... ew.
Good: I felt like a good mom at the bounce house. Most of the other moms just sat there ignoring their children while they bounced. But I had so much fun bouncing with my kids.
Bad: I had to help many other little ones maneuver the obstacles since their parents were just sitting there ignoring them. Not that I minded, but come on moms! I get if your kids are older but when you have a 1 year old, help them out.
Good: Got a 30 Day Shred workout in. Hoping I won't be quite as sore from this one
Bad: Realized that it's only 2 weeks until husband leave for flight school for a whole month. :(
Good: I was dinking around on the internet yesterday at work (instead of working.. he he) and stumbled upon this website called Pilot Wives Club. Basically it's this site where there is all sort of blogs, groups, etc for pilot wives. It's HARD being the wife of a pilot and it's HARD being alone so much, especially with 2 children. So it was so nice to see a site where I can see what other people in similar situations go through. They had a list of some really cool blogs on there too. I'm really happy I found this little niche on the internet, and I think this will be a huge help to me, especially with husband pretty much gone for the entire month of May. The support of other women going through the exact same thing as me will be much needed and appreciated.
Bad: Spent waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much time on the Pilot Wives blog, and didn't get a whole lot of work done yesterday. Employee of the Year, I am... they are lucky to have me!
Good: Husband has Thursday-Sunday off. Due to a special project at work, he hasn't had a full day off for severalyears weeks now. It will be nice to actually have a break to go get my hair highlighted and cut.
Bad: I have an appointment on Friday to get S's ears checked. If they still look bad, we are going to have to get tubes in her ears. I'm pretty sure I know what they are going to say (yes to the tubes) but we'll see. I know so many people whose children had tubes and it was fine, but I'd rather not have to do this if possible.
Good: Sister-in-law came over early this morning to watch the kids for me so I could go to the dentist for this awful tooth pain I've been having lately
Bad: Need a root canal... boo!
Good: It's going to be 67 degrees today... whoooooo!
Happy Wednesday!
-V
Bad: As soon as they woke up the fighting started... good times.
Good: Got a 'Bouce Card' to the Blast Factory (bounce house) from Groupon and we went to Tots Bounce today, it was SO fun. The kids loved it and man it's a workout!Bad: Got reeeeeal sweaty from bouncing... ew.
Good: I felt like a good mom at the bounce house. Most of the other moms just sat there ignoring their children while they bounced. But I had so much fun bouncing with my kids.
Bad: I had to help many other little ones maneuver the obstacles since their parents were just sitting there ignoring them. Not that I minded, but come on moms! I get if your kids are older but when you have a 1 year old, help them out.
Good: Got a 30 Day Shred workout in. Hoping I won't be quite as sore from this one
Bad: Realized that it's only 2 weeks until husband leave for flight school for a whole month. :(
Good: I was dinking around on the internet yesterday at work (instead of working.. he he) and stumbled upon this website called Pilot Wives Club. Basically it's this site where there is all sort of blogs, groups, etc for pilot wives. It's HARD being the wife of a pilot and it's HARD being alone so much, especially with 2 children. So it was so nice to see a site where I can see what other people in similar situations go through. They had a list of some really cool blogs on there too. I'm really happy I found this little niche on the internet, and I think this will be a huge help to me, especially with husband pretty much gone for the entire month of May. The support of other women going through the exact same thing as me will be much needed and appreciated.
Bad: Spent waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much time on the Pilot Wives blog, and didn't get a whole lot of work done yesterday. Employee of the Year, I am... they are lucky to have me!
Good: Husband has Thursday-Sunday off. Due to a special project at work, he hasn't had a full day off for several
Bad: I have an appointment on Friday to get S's ears checked. If they still look bad, we are going to have to get tubes in her ears. I'm pretty sure I know what they are going to say (yes to the tubes) but we'll see. I know so many people whose children had tubes and it was fine, but I'd rather not have to do this if possible.
Good: Sister-in-law came over early this morning to watch the kids for me so I could go to the dentist for this awful tooth pain I've been having lately
Bad: Need a root canal... boo!
Good: It's going to be 67 degrees today... whoooooo!
Happy Wednesday!
-V
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
The Top Things Not To Say To A Pilot's Wife
Are you scared something will happen to him?
No – I actually hadn’t thought about until just now when you said that – so
thanks for that!
He’ll be back in no time – Keep busy, he’ll be back before you know it!
Um.... keep busy, really? Cause taking care of 2 kids alone for multiple
days on end, isn't busy enough?
Do you feel like a single mom?
Do you feel like a single mom?
This is probably the most common question I get. It's rude. I'm sorry, but
single moms are AMAZING people. They do this alone, with no help from anyone. Am
I alone alot? Yes. But I also have multiple, upon multiple days at home with my
husband. It's an insult to me, and insult to my husband and most importantly an
insult to single moms.
Come and visit us!
Thank you very much. But no thanks. Do you really want to help? If so then
come and visit ME
Do you get to fly with your husband when he goes on a
trip?
Surrrrrre, I can take off at a moment's notice any time a trip pops up. At
17 months and 3 years old, the kids are plenty old enough to stay home alone at
this point. And my work? They don't need me to come in.
Do you have family nearby to help?
Yes, but I'm pretty sure I've got it covered, I am quite capable, thanks
I don’t know how you do it. I don’t think I
could.
What exactly do you mean by that? Would you divorce the father of your
children because he’s going away? I’m actually not quite sure how we do it
either but I know one thing – you’re right - not everyone could.
All in good fun!
-V
All in good fun!
-V
Monday, April 16, 2012
Deeeeeeeetroit Basketball!
Unfortunately, J was VERY afraid when we first sat down. The loud music and all the cheering, scared the heck out of the poor little guy. I had to take him back upstairs for a bit when the game actually started. Luckily the Caesars Club was right across the hall. So J and I sat belly up at the bar for a while, him with an apple juice and me with a glass of wine and played with straws and toothpicks and watched the game on the tv for a bit. I left husband and my nephew (who we also took for his birthday present) to watch the game in their seats.
After a while I convinced J to just hang out in the hallway for a while so we could get used to the noise, then we hung out in the tunnel. Then once we got used to that, we made it to the top of the stairs... FINALLY I convinced him to go sit in our seats for a bit. As long as I covered his ears for the "loud parts" as he called them, he was ok. Then miraculously towards the end of the 1st half of the game, he was fine. He was dancing and yelling and clapping, the noise not bothering him at all... go figure.
We also were on the Jumbo Tron screen and we got to be on TV. I had several people text me to tell me they saw a close-up of us on TV. One friend even took a photo of her tv screen with us on it and posted it to facebook!
Since the game went into over-time, we didn't end up getting back home until midnight. My alarm going off at 6am was ROUGH today. In typical J fashion, he was still up by 6:45am. I swear that child could go to bed at 2am and he would still wake up bright and early. On my way to work this morning, I get a call from daycare and they told me S had thrown-up.... sooooo I turn my car back around and went and got her and took her home. Well, she's been running around laughing and playing and just have a great ole time.... sure doesn't look sick to me. So, I'm home today. I left J at school since, well we are paying for it so might as well get our money's worth on one of our kids today.
At least I'll be able to workout when S goes down for a nap, so that's good. I did 30 Day Shred yesterday before the game and I'm soooo sore again. Man that is such a great workout!
Happy Monday all!
-V
Friday, April 13, 2012
Random Facts About V - Part 2
I did this a few months back and had a lot of fun with it (http://2bestfriendschubbyroadtoskinny.blogspot.com/2012/02/random-facts-about-me.html)
So here's Random Fact's About V - Part 2:
-V
So here's Random Fact's About V - Part 2:
- Husband and I originally chose the names Brooke and Sebastian for our baby names. Some how along the 9 months I was pregnant with each, they changed to what they are now.
- In between J and S I had a miscarriage. The baby, whom we named Joesph (I am convinced he was a boy) was 10 weeks old when I went in for a routine check up and there was no heartbeat. Since the baby hadn't 'passed' yet and because husband travels out of town for work, we had to schedule a D & C so I didn't pass him, home alone in the middle of the night. We wanted the remains of Joesph so I could get them blessed and buried. After I had the D & C they told me I could pick up the remains in about a week. When the hospital called me and told me they were ready to be picked up, I had to go to the hospital lab to get them. Once there, the lady handed me the remains of my child in a clear, plastic jar. I was so shocked by this, I numbly walked out of the lab, my hands wrapped around the jar trying to cover it as I walked to my car so no one could see... awful.
- As I mentioned in my original Random Facts About V blog post, I modeled in NYC as a child. I was also involved in some radio and television work. My first commercial was for the Strawberry Shortcake dolls. Remember those? The original dolls, not the fancy new updated ones they have now. My first radio commercial for an orange juice called "Squeeze." I still remember my line "Hey mom, give me a Squeeze!" Needless to say, that particular brand of orange juice is no longer around...
- Husband and I dated for 4 years before we got engaged. Two of those years were long distance. One year he was going to flight school in Florida, while I was still in Michigan. The other year we were living 3 hours apart in Michigan while he was a flight instructor.
- I'm 5 foot 9. As a child I was always the tallest kid in my class and I HATED it. They used to tease me and call me the "Jolly Green Giant." I was so self conscious that in every school photo ever taken of me in elementary school, I am squatting down so I appear shorter.
- When I was about 9 years old I became deathly afraid of fires and my house starting on fire. I would lie awake, night after night, just trying to see or smell smoke. I was so scared that I would sneak into either my parents or brother or sister's bedrooms and sleep on their floor. I was caught a few times and pretended I had slept walked in there. To this day, my entire family thinks I was a sleep walker when I was younger.
- Where I grew up in Connecticut, the married actors Gene Wilder and Gilda Radner lived about a mile from our home. One day when I was about 10, my mom convinced me to walk up to their front door and ring the doorbell and tell them I lost my cat and had seen it run through their yard. Gilda Radner was the one who answered their door and she was soooo sweet and nice to me. She took down all the information on my "lost cat." She also let me look around her backyard for it.
- My first job was at a McDonald's when I was 15-years-old living in Scottsdale, AZ. "You want fries with that?"
- I got fired from my 2nd job at Smitty's in Scottsdale, for giving a friend a Coke for a discounted price.
-V
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Tuna... Breakfast of Champions?
So my afternoon went MUCH better than my morning yesterday. After J & S woke up from their naps, we cuddled in my bed for a bit and watched Bubble Guppies, J's new favorite show. The cuddle was much needed and it gave me a nice rest after my workout.
After that we went to the library (no tantrums!) and then the park. So I'm happy to say my day ended on a much more positive note than it started on.
I'm sore as holy heck today from my workout. I haven't done 30 Day Shred in a few weeks. I've been trying to let my elbow heal a bit and Jillian workouts REALLY irritate it. But only a few minutes after I started it, my elbow starting killing again. I swear between what I think is a my pinched nerve in my butt and this elbow injury from tennis, I'm a mess right now and am running out of workouts. I finished the workout anyway, but I definitely felt it. I have an appointment in a few weeks to get this elbow and butt thing checked out. I just want to make sure I didn't do any major damage. But I'm going to assume that it's just 2 injuries that are going to take a while to heal.
Husband wasn't supposed to fly this morning, but late last night they called him and told him he had a very early morning flight. He normally makes my protein shakes and packs my lunch for me (I know, I'm spoiled when he's home). So I had no breakfast waiting for me and was so rushed to get out of the house and the kids dropped off at school, that I didn't have time to grab anything. So I get to work STARVING and all I have in my desk is a packet of tuna. Breakfast of Champions people! Nothing like some nasty fish breath to start off my day. At least it was protein packed. Not quite sure what I'm going to do for lunch yet. So we allow J to have a paci when he sleeps still. I know, I know, he's going to be 16 years old with one at this rate. But I'm just not ready to fight this battle yet. Anyway, I usually don't wrangle the paci away from him until after he goes potty in the morning. It's just easier this way. Anyway, so he's sitting on the potty this morning peeing and sneezes. The frickin paci goes flying out of his mouth and into the pee-filled toilet. We both just sat there stunned for a moment and stared at it. I busted out laughing after a second, and he does too, but I had to stick my hand in there and get it out. YUCK YUCK YUCK! The joys of motherhood people....
Ok, I'm babbling... later.
-V
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Not Gonna Lie...
... it's been a rough day so far. I feel like the God's are against me. This has been my day so far:
Sooooo I'm pretty much done for the day. But instead of packing it in and crawling into bedwith a glass of wine like I wanted to, I did 30 Day Shred while the kids napped. It KILLED me and I probably shouldn't have done Level 2 because of my slacking ways lately, but what matters is I did it.
So here's to a MUCH better afternoon!
-V
- Sienna woke up an hour earlier than normal. So she's been a DISASTER today.
- I wore my shirt inside out to playgroup this morning... sweet.
- S threw the BIGGEST temper tantrum at playgroup because I wouldn't let her play with the paint. (I don't ever remember J throwing such massive temper tantrum's at this age... it's crazy)
- We had to leave playgroup because she wouldn't stop screaming and EVERYONE was staring at me.
- As we walked back to our car, with a screaming S, J fell in the parking lot and scraped up his whole knee.
- As I was waiting in line at Meijers to return something, a very sweet but SLOW old lady seriously sat there and took her sweet ole time, asking tons of questions, writing out a check, putting all her stuff away. Seriously lady? I have 2 children smashed into a shopping cart here! GO! (yes, I am probably going to hell for this).
Sooooo I'm pretty much done for the day. But instead of packing it in and crawling into bed
So here's to a MUCH better afternoon!
-V
Lost In Translation
Hello, A here and I am heading home from Baltimore! Great meetings/dinner and I was even able to catch an earlier flight home - yeah me!
So B has been sick for what feels like weeks on end, since he was a baby he's had a snarkley nose (my mom term for plugged up or always running) and I just feel like something bigger has been going on. With allergy season in full swing in ATL and just getting over a cold my little dude has been plugged up beyond belief and on too many antibiotics as of late...so when another mother talked to E while he was dropping B off at school yesterday and brought up a Chinese Herbalist E's ears perked up with interest. See her son "A" suffers from seizures and she is the ULTRA protective mom with everything he does. He had also been sick and suffering with allergies, been on 9k antibiotics over the past few weeks and nothing seems to have been working...until she took him to her Chinese Herbalist.
Backing up a good bit, she is from Korea - her Husband was born in N. America but they met there and she has been in the states for like 7 years now - she's as nice as can be and I really like her, however I can understand only maybe 60% of what she is saying. B LOVES her son A so we do things with them and communicate a lot over text since talking on the phone just isn't an option...since I typically don't know what she's saying - G-d knows what I agree to 1/2 the time. This may sound terrible but I love her to death and I know shes trying really hard so I just don't want to say anything...we just get through it.
Which now leads to tomorrow. E filled her in on B's situation and I texted her from Baltimore saying I had to see the Chinese Herbalist for B as well since A was cured in 5 days - YES, 5 days with some of their meds. I'm convinced the same will happen for B and we now have an apt at 10a tomorrow and she is coming with me since the Dr doesn't speak English very well either. Yes, you read that correctly...JC, I'm laughing even as I'm typing this - I mean - within 48 hrs, I have an apt at what I sorta believe is a witch doctor who will probably shake chicken legs @ the B in some back-room medical office...that wont even be true medical office...see ya modern medicine, shake me up some chicken legs!
Anywhoo - we are meeting at the Costco parking lot and going together tomorrow morning - stay tuned. I will either walk out of there with crazy cure or one hell of a good story!
Sayonara! a
ps - had McDonalds this morning for breakfast at the airport - WTH!
So B has been sick for what feels like weeks on end, since he was a baby he's had a snarkley nose (my mom term for plugged up or always running) and I just feel like something bigger has been going on. With allergy season in full swing in ATL and just getting over a cold my little dude has been plugged up beyond belief and on too many antibiotics as of late...so when another mother talked to E while he was dropping B off at school yesterday and brought up a Chinese Herbalist E's ears perked up with interest. See her son "A" suffers from seizures and she is the ULTRA protective mom with everything he does. He had also been sick and suffering with allergies, been on 9k antibiotics over the past few weeks and nothing seems to have been working...until she took him to her Chinese Herbalist.
Backing up a good bit, she is from Korea - her Husband was born in N. America but they met there and she has been in the states for like 7 years now - she's as nice as can be and I really like her, however I can understand only maybe 60% of what she is saying. B LOVES her son A so we do things with them and communicate a lot over text since talking on the phone just isn't an option...since I typically don't know what she's saying - G-d knows what I agree to 1/2 the time. This may sound terrible but I love her to death and I know shes trying really hard so I just don't want to say anything...we just get through it.
Which now leads to tomorrow. E filled her in on B's situation and I texted her from Baltimore saying I had to see the Chinese Herbalist for B as well since A was cured in 5 days - YES, 5 days with some of their meds. I'm convinced the same will happen for B and we now have an apt at 10a tomorrow and she is coming with me since the Dr doesn't speak English very well either. Yes, you read that correctly...JC, I'm laughing even as I'm typing this - I mean - within 48 hrs, I have an apt at what I sorta believe is a witch doctor who will probably shake chicken legs @ the B in some back-room medical office...that wont even be true medical office...see ya modern medicine, shake me up some chicken legs!
Anywhoo - we are meeting at the Costco parking lot and going together tomorrow morning - stay tuned. I will either walk out of there with crazy cure or one hell of a good story!
Sayonara! a
ps - had McDonalds this morning for breakfast at the airport - WTH!
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Fatty McFattson
Well V - as sad as I am to say it I am happy we are on the crap-eating-train together. Somehow it makes it better for me that I am not alone...forgetting all of the reasons that you need to be healthy below (and me too) I guess I am just selfish like that.
I am in MD today, landed around 1:30 and HAULED it to my most favorite pizza place in the world. Its cheap and so delicious I could have eaten 700 pieces - but - considering I am having dinner with clients tonight I kept it at 1 slice. I am back out tomorrow first thing in the AM and am going to try my hardest to eat well tonight. I am driving so at least I know the wine will be in check.
Sigh...
-a
I am in MD today, landed around 1:30 and HAULED it to my most favorite pizza place in the world. Its cheap and so delicious I could have eaten 700 pieces - but - considering I am having dinner with clients tonight I kept it at 1 slice. I am back out tomorrow first thing in the AM and am going to try my hardest to eat well tonight. I am driving so at least I know the wine will be in check.
Sigh...
-a
Playing with Fire
As I confessed to you last week, my eating has been for sh*t lately. I'm not sure why I can't seem to get it together, but I need to do something pretty soon about it. For now, I haven't put weight back on. But I know this won't last for long. So unless I make some pretty big changes soon, it's going to creep back on and before I know it I will be back where I started in January.
Most days I'm still doing protein shakes in the mornings, with almonds as a mid-morning snack. I do my egg whites mixed with spinach and ham or turkey sausage still a lot for lunch. I always eat like the same meal over and over until I get sick of it and move onto something else. Which weirdly, usually works in my favor most of the time because I know exactly how much I'm eating. Anyway, so it's not really the daytime that I'm off track with. It's the darned night time eating. The WORST time to eat. It's after my kids go to bed that I'm starving and I'm snacking. When husband is home, I'm ok on this. I'm always ok when I'm around other people. It's when husband is traveling and I'm alone that I always seem to cave. And this is where I've gone awry. I'm worried because with husband leaving for 3.5 weeks for flight school on April 28th, I can't be doing this. I need to get back on my wagon before he leaves town.
I have done this on and off for years. I try and lose weight, and I do lose a bit, see some results, the compliments starting coming in and then think I can go back to my horrible eating habits. And then eventually gain it all back. Why can't I learn?
Maybe instead of focusing on the negatives of what I'm doing right now, I should be focusing on WHY I want to be a healthier me. So here goes:
So there you have it. Why I want to be a healthier V. I think I may print out this list and hang it up so I can remember why I'm doing this. So instead of beating myself up every day and thinking negatively about myself, I can look at this and see the positives.
-V
Most days I'm still doing protein shakes in the mornings, with almonds as a mid-morning snack. I do my egg whites mixed with spinach and ham or turkey sausage still a lot for lunch. I always eat like the same meal over and over until I get sick of it and move onto something else. Which weirdly, usually works in my favor most of the time because I know exactly how much I'm eating. Anyway, so it's not really the daytime that I'm off track with. It's the darned night time eating. The WORST time to eat. It's after my kids go to bed that I'm starving and I'm snacking. When husband is home, I'm ok on this. I'm always ok when I'm around other people. It's when husband is traveling and I'm alone that I always seem to cave. And this is where I've gone awry. I'm worried because with husband leaving for 3.5 weeks for flight school on April 28th, I can't be doing this. I need to get back on my wagon before he leaves town.
I have done this on and off for years. I try and lose weight, and I do lose a bit, see some results, the compliments starting coming in and then think I can go back to my horrible eating habits. And then eventually gain it all back. Why can't I learn?
Maybe instead of focusing on the negatives of what I'm doing right now, I should be focusing on WHY I want to be a healthier me. So here goes:
- I want to be healthy for my children. I want to be around for a very long time. I want to be able to keep up with them, and be as active as they are.
- I want to be attractive for my husband. I want him to look at me and be all like "dammmmmn, that's my wife!"
- I want my kids to be proud of their mother. Right now I could be 800lbs and my kids would love me the same. But as they get older and are in school, I want them to be proud of me when I show up there. I remember I was always proud when my mother showed up at school. Unlike a lot of my friends mother's, my mom was always dressed really stylish, she was thin, had great hair, etc. Superficial? Yes, but it was important to me at that age, so I can only assume it will be important to my children.
- I don't want either of my kids growing up with eating issues like I have. Especially S. I think girls are more prone to this, especially if a parent has issues. I want her to have a healthy relationship with food. I don't want her to be consumed by what she's eating or not eating, like myself. This is SO so so important.
- Injuries. As you can read on here, I am always getting injured. Just right now, I have a pinched nerve in my butt, so I can't run. I have an elbow injury from playing tennis TWO months ago in Florida. So I can lift weights, but only exercises that lock the elbow in place while I do them. And I have issues with my feet buring when I workout. Some of this cannot be helped. But I do think the better shape I'm in and the less I weigh, the less injuries I might have.
So there you have it. Why I want to be a healthier V. I think I may print out this list and hang it up so I can remember why I'm doing this. So instead of beating myself up every day and thinking negatively about myself, I can look at this and see the positives.
-V
Monday, April 9, 2012
This is why people with a 3-year-old and 1-year-old shouldn't be allowed in country clubs...
We had a great Easter yesterday! The kids were SO excited that the Easter bunny had left them eggs and baskets. My hair stylist had told me that she and her son leave out a plate of carrots and a bowl of water for the Easter Bunny. So I totally stole the idea, and J and I left a out some carrots and water. Though I put a bit of pink food coloring in our bowl to make it pretty for the Easter Bunny.
J was sooooo excited on Sunday morning to see he had eaten all of the carrots and drank the water.
After the kids ate their weight in candy, we piled in the car and headed off to my sisters' house. There, we had another Easter egg hunt. It was total chaos with my 2 kids and her 2 kids, but really fun. We even were able to wrangle them all down for a nap before we went to brunchand so we could have a glass of wine.
Brunch was fun at my parent's country club (I feel like that line makes us sound so fancy, which we are so not). It's hard to get a lot of eating done when you have 2 little kids that need something every 2 seconds. But it's probably a good thing the way my eating has been lately. They had the Easter Bunny there too. At first J was reeeeeal scared of him. But when he saw his cousin sitting on his lap, all of a sudden he became obsessed with the Easter Bunny. He was hugging him, petting his ears, and feet. I think we had to go back and see him at least 10 more times throughout brunch. S on the other hand, was deathly afraid of him and would scream her head off if we even came close to him... good times.
We almost made it out of there without incident... almost. You see, J is has this really weird phobia about toilets. Yes, toilets. One time he was sitting on the potty at our house and he decided to flush it several times in a row, while he was still on it. So of course the toilet overflowed, and water came pouring all over the floor. J FREAKED out! And ever since he's scared of that happening again. Especially public toilets, because the flush is so loud. So we were getting ready to leave the country club and I told J we had to use the potty before we made the 1.5 hour trek back home. So we get in there and he starts spouting off about how the toilet is clogged and its going to flood, yadda yadda. I'm literally trying to pull him into the stall and he's completely freaking out. Since this is a pretty nice country club and I don't want to embarrass my parents, I finally relent and say fine, just wait out here for me then. So as I'm in the stall, I hear other people enter the bathroom. Well J then proceeds to tell them not to use any of the stalls because they are all clogged. So the people politely smile and walk around him, so he starts telling them louder and louder about how it's clogged and it's going to flood and that they NEED to leave. I'm trying to get out of the stall as fast as humanly possible to stop this. O.M.G. what a disaster. This is why people with a 3-year-old and 1-year-old shouldn't be allowed in country clubs...
Back to the grind today. Everyone was tired this morning we woke up for work and school. It's going to be a long day I think.
Happy Monday!
-V
J was sooooo excited on Sunday morning to see he had eaten all of the carrots and drank the water.
After the kids ate their weight in candy, we piled in the car and headed off to my sisters' house. There, we had another Easter egg hunt. It was total chaos with my 2 kids and her 2 kids, but really fun. We even were able to wrangle them all down for a nap before we went to brunch
Brunch was fun at my parent's country club (I feel like that line makes us sound so fancy, which we are so not). It's hard to get a lot of eating done when you have 2 little kids that need something every 2 seconds. But it's probably a good thing the way my eating has been lately. They had the Easter Bunny there too. At first J was reeeeeal scared of him. But when he saw his cousin sitting on his lap, all of a sudden he became obsessed with the Easter Bunny. He was hugging him, petting his ears, and feet. I think we had to go back and see him at least 10 more times throughout brunch. S on the other hand, was deathly afraid of him and would scream her head off if we even came close to him... good times.
We almost made it out of there without incident... almost. You see, J is has this really weird phobia about toilets. Yes, toilets. One time he was sitting on the potty at our house and he decided to flush it several times in a row, while he was still on it. So of course the toilet overflowed, and water came pouring all over the floor. J FREAKED out! And ever since he's scared of that happening again. Especially public toilets, because the flush is so loud. So we were getting ready to leave the country club and I told J we had to use the potty before we made the 1.5 hour trek back home. So we get in there and he starts spouting off about how the toilet is clogged and its going to flood, yadda yadda. I'm literally trying to pull him into the stall and he's completely freaking out. Since this is a pretty nice country club and I don't want to embarrass my parents, I finally relent and say fine, just wait out here for me then. So as I'm in the stall, I hear other people enter the bathroom. Well J then proceeds to tell them not to use any of the stalls because they are all clogged. So the people politely smile and walk around him, so he starts telling them louder and louder about how it's clogged and it's going to flood and that they NEED to leave. I'm trying to get out of the stall as fast as humanly possible to stop this. O.M.G. what a disaster. This is why people with a 3-year-old and 1-year-old shouldn't be allowed in country clubs...
Back to the grind today. Everyone was tired this morning we woke up for work and school. It's going to be a long day I think.
Happy Monday!
-V
Saturday, April 7, 2012
White Bread Sandwich
When is the last time you had one of those! Today, I did. Here goes...
Well, I am sick as a dog today - perfect. My master bedroom is getting painted for the 5th time (yes, 5th - I just havent been able to decide on a color, but this time I have it - I just know it) and E and B have rolled on to the car wash to give me some downtime. I am tired and beat up and after E's tennis match today he brought me home a sandwich from one of my favorite places of all time, Little European Bakery. I get the same thing every time and I crave it like its my job, it consists of the following: Championship Bread (grainy and yummy), turkey, sun dried tomato mayonnaise, shaved Parmesan, pickles and lettecus. Its heaven. E brought me: White Buttercrisp Bread, turkey, pickles, whole grain mustard and mayo. It was good and super sweet of him but all I can think about is the stupid white bread...sigh. I know it's wrong but the calories feel SO WASTED on something that I wasn't even that passionate about (like the burger earlier this week...yummy). He tried, that was nice...but I'm still not excited about it.
Hope you all are having a better weekend than I am so far, stay healthy and skinny web-friends!
-a
Well, I am sick as a dog today - perfect. My master bedroom is getting painted for the 5th time (yes, 5th - I just havent been able to decide on a color, but this time I have it - I just know it) and E and B have rolled on to the car wash to give me some downtime. I am tired and beat up and after E's tennis match today he brought me home a sandwich from one of my favorite places of all time, Little European Bakery. I get the same thing every time and I crave it like its my job, it consists of the following: Championship Bread (grainy and yummy), turkey, sun dried tomato mayonnaise, shaved Parmesan, pickles and lettecus. Its heaven. E brought me: White Buttercrisp Bread, turkey, pickles, whole grain mustard and mayo. It was good and super sweet of him but all I can think about is the stupid white bread...sigh. I know it's wrong but the calories feel SO WASTED on something that I wasn't even that passionate about (like the burger earlier this week...yummy). He tried, that was nice...but I'm still not excited about it.
Hope you all are having a better weekend than I am so far, stay healthy and skinny web-friends!
-a
Friday, April 6, 2012
My Day in Photos
So when I was pregnant with S, we had to move J out of the "baby" room and into what was our office. Being that we are now office-less, our mail is usually scattered all over our kitchen counter, and splattered with some type of food or milk. It drives me CRAZY. So on a blog (can't remember which one now) I saw that this woman had a similar problem and had created this cute little basket/folder thing to help organize her mail. Well in typical V fashion, I printed it out because I was sooooo going to make this. I do this a lot... print things out and never ever ever do I make them. But I actually did this time and I'm very impressed with myself.
To cover up the ugly green folder color, I created this polka dot pattern and printed it out and slid it in the front of the basket. My kitchen counter is already so much less cluttered. Yay!
I also finally put together this toy organizer that we got. I used to have large baskets that we would throw the toys in. But now that we have 2 kids and so many toys I can't even count, the baskets stopped working. So I saw these organizers at another woman's house once and I've wanted them ever since.
So now my toys are neatly put away, and according to category (I can be a lot bit OCD). I'm sure once the kids get a hold of this it won't be quite as neat, but it's got to be better than what we had.
This morning I stopped into a cute little shop downtown and picked up an Easter dress for S. I got this dress on clearance for super cheap. I'm quite impressed with my find. She is going to look ADORABLE in this.
I also picked up a cute little pink sweater for her to wear over it, since it's only going to be 57 degrees on Sunday. We are headed to my sister's house that morning for an Easter Egg hunt with her kids and my parents. Then off to brunch at my parent's country club, where the actual Easter bunny will be. I have a feeling S is going to be terrified of the Easter bunny.
Lastly, I took this photo in my front yard just now. I still can't believe we have all our trees in bloom so early in the year. But it was so pretty I had to take a photo of it.
Have a great weekend my cyber friends!
-V
I also finally put together this toy organizer that we got. I used to have large baskets that we would throw the toys in. But now that we have 2 kids and so many toys I can't even count, the baskets stopped working. So I saw these organizers at another woman's house once and I've wanted them ever since.
This morning I stopped into a cute little shop downtown and picked up an Easter dress for S. I got this dress on clearance for super cheap. I'm quite impressed with my find. She is going to look ADORABLE in this.
Lastly, I took this photo in my front yard just now. I still can't believe we have all our trees in bloom so early in the year. But it was so pretty I had to take a photo of it.
Have a great weekend my cyber friends!
-V
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Largest Burger Of My Life
I've been on the road all week and have OVERALL been very good - until now. I am in MN and they have "made to order" burgers at the airport. I just slammed down an entire turkey burger with blue cheese, LTO, ketchup, mustard AND mayo...with fries...yes I'm hung over...and OMG was it ever good. Been forever since I've had a burger and somehow I justified it since it was turkey. My belly is fat today and damn if it doesn't feel great.
I had one of those moments today that made me really happy, I am finally starting to feel OK about my body again. Why, as women, are we so hard on ourselves? Can we not just feel good no matter how we look? Why do we continually feel judged. Sigh. Oh well. Like this woman who says she was held back because she was too pretty - @ first I thought to myself, OMG really? But the more I think about it the more jealous of her self esteem I am becoming. I'd kill to feel like I was too pretty for ANYTHING.
I am back to Zumba this week to confinue the healthy trend and now work off the burger that I just wolfed down.
Hope you all are having a GLORIOUS day!
-a
I had one of those moments today that made me really happy, I am finally starting to feel OK about my body again. Why, as women, are we so hard on ourselves? Can we not just feel good no matter how we look? Why do we continually feel judged. Sigh. Oh well. Like this woman who says she was held back because she was too pretty - @ first I thought to myself, OMG really? But the more I think about it the more jealous of her self esteem I am becoming. I'd kill to feel like I was too pretty for ANYTHING.
I am back to Zumba this week to confinue the healthy trend and now work off the burger that I just wolfed down.
Hope you all are having a GLORIOUS day!
-a
The Hill
Every year, come spring time, I try and get into biking shape. Usually it's because husband and I compete in the Zoo-de-Mac, a 54 mile bike ride from Boyne Highlands, Mich to Mackinac City, Mich. Since husband will be at flight school during the race this year, we aren't going to do it. Well we are, but not until the Zoo-de-Mac in the Fall, in September.
Anyway, I have a love/hate relationship with this hill. I hate it for obvious reasons.... it's hard as hell to get up it. I love it, because I know I'm in good biking shape once I can get up it. Usually each year it takes me a few bike trips out before I can get up it without I was pretty excited and have no idea how this happened. I would like to say it's from all the running I've been doing. But I know first hand, being in running shape doesn't mean you are in biking shape (and vice versa). I've done this Zoo-de-Mac in the past having trained very little on my bike, thinking I'd be ok because I had been running 3 miles a day, several times a week. I almost didn't finish that year. And I've up and done a 5K running race, thinking I'd be ok because I was biking a lot, and again, I almost didn't finish. So I'm not quite sure what has changed this year, but I'm pretty happy.
I had a great ride through the pretty back roads by my house. What I love about my little town is that I live in a subdivision, but I can bike 5 minutes away and be out in the "country." Lots of hilly, beautiful back roads.
Side note: I thought this would be such a cool photo of me biking with the shadow. I seriously almost crashed trying to take this pic with my cell phone. I will not be attempting this again....
As great as I have been doing with the exercise, I've been seriously slacking on my eating healthy. I don't know what is going on that I can't get my crap together on this eating thing. It's just SO hard for me to get on track lately. I've been eating horribly, which is such a shame because the weight is going to start packing back on real soon if I don't stop this. Especially with husband leaving town for 3.5 weeks in May, I NEED to get my sh*t together.
If anyone has any motivating thoughts for me to help me get back on track, I'd appreciate it.
-V
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Top Places I Try and Avoid Taking My Kids To
The Library. While the library can be a great place for children, our library's children's section is not closed off. So being that my kids are the loudest children on the planet, every word they say vibrates throughout the extremely quiet library. It also always seems to be the place they have total meltdowns too. And S is quite obsessed with ripping down every book she sees on a shelf. They hate us there...
Any Restaurant. Doesn't matter if it's Subway or Applebee's. Taking my kids out to eat is NOT a fun experience. I rarely get a chance to eat. Usually the second my kids are done eating, they immediately want to get up and run around. I try to avoid eating out at all costs, unless there is a playland involved.
Clothing Store. This has disaster written all over it. Not only are there numerous places to hide, but ripping tags off seems to be J's favorite past time. I never enter a clothing store unless both my kids arelocked strapped into a stroller and can't get out.
Drug Store. Between the candy, toys and the 7 million items on each shelf, getting in and out of this store without it being trashed, or having a total meltdown because they want a new toy, is next to impossible.
The Grocery Store Check Out Isle. The grocery store in itself isn't too bad. But why, oh why do they have to load the checkout isle up with candy and toys? Well played Meijers... well played.
The Hardware Store. Why would I need to go to a hardware store you ask? Well husband will wait until the hardware store has some crazy sale and he will send me there to get the most random items. Last week he sent me for a Log Jack. There are so many dangerous items in a hardware store. I'll turn around for one second and J will be swinging an axe around.
-V
Any Restaurant. Doesn't matter if it's Subway or Applebee's. Taking my kids out to eat is NOT a fun experience. I rarely get a chance to eat. Usually the second my kids are done eating, they immediately want to get up and run around. I try to avoid eating out at all costs, unless there is a playland involved.
Clothing Store. This has disaster written all over it. Not only are there numerous places to hide, but ripping tags off seems to be J's favorite past time. I never enter a clothing store unless both my kids are
Drug Store. Between the candy, toys and the 7 million items on each shelf, getting in and out of this store without it being trashed, or having a total meltdown because they want a new toy, is next to impossible.
The Grocery Store Check Out Isle. The grocery store in itself isn't too bad. But why, oh why do they have to load the checkout isle up with candy and toys? Well played Meijers... well played.
The Hardware Store. Why would I need to go to a hardware store you ask? Well husband will wait until the hardware store has some crazy sale and he will send me there to get the most random items. Last week he sent me for a Log Jack. There are so many dangerous items in a hardware store. I'll turn around for one second and J will be swinging an axe around.
-V
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
"At every occasion I'll be ready for the funeral" ~Band of Horses
So sorry I've been M.I.A. But unfortunately my friends mom passed away and I've been out of town with her.
It was a very emotionally charged weekend. Like I said last week, this is the first friend I've had whose parent has died. It makes you think a lot about your own parents dying. But I'm SO happy I was able to be there for her. She doesn't have a ton of family, so it was us, her friends, that were her support for this. We sat with her through the entire wake. Sat right behind her at the funeral. And sat with her at the luncheon. It was also nice to see 'my girls.' This group of us met in college. We were all in the same sorority and we are still all very close. I don't get to see them a much as I used too, being that I live 2 hours away, but they will always be like family to me. Whomever said being a part of a sorority is like "buying your friends" couldn't have been more wrong. Or, maybe it was the best money I ever spent? Ha ha.... whatever it may be, I love my life-long friends.
The mother of my friend was an interesting woman. She was VERY into appearances and very pretentious. She'd be the first to tell you that about herself. And this funeral, which she had planned every detail for herself, was in true Jane form. OVER THE TOP. The luncheon was at the Dearborn Country Club. Elaborate appetizers, Surf and Turf for lunch and even a party favor (yes you read that correctly) for every guest that attended. Jane knew exactly the way she wanted her "last event" to be!
On Friday, at the wake, my friend asked us to stay until the end. They had to say their last goodbye to her mom that night, since it was going to be a close casket funeral. She wanted us to be around afterwards, so we all went across the street to a place called the Double Olive (martini bar). Well I was EXHAUSTED at that point, so I went and got a cup of coffee. Big mistake, I was up until 3:15am that night. Granted I was drinking wine with my friends up until that point, but wow. I cannot remember the last time I stayed up that late, unless it was with one of my kids. When the alarm went off at 8am the next morning, I could barely function. Holy hang over.
Oh, and want to hear what I said at the luncheon? We walked in the room and I saw all the appetizers. I hadn't eaten dinner the night before, and had only a protein bar for breakfast that morning. So all the food looked amazing! So I say, loudly, to my sister standing next to me "WOW, look at all that yummy food! I must have died and gone to Heaven!" Yes people, I actually said that... at a funeral. They should never let me out of the house. Only me.
Ok, I'm mad behind at work, so I will end it here. Glad to be back though!
-V
It was a very emotionally charged weekend. Like I said last week, this is the first friend I've had whose parent has died. It makes you think a lot about your own parents dying. But I'm SO happy I was able to be there for her. She doesn't have a ton of family, so it was us, her friends, that were her support for this. We sat with her through the entire wake. Sat right behind her at the funeral. And sat with her at the luncheon. It was also nice to see 'my girls.' This group of us met in college. We were all in the same sorority and we are still all very close. I don't get to see them a much as I used too, being that I live 2 hours away, but they will always be like family to me. Whomever said being a part of a sorority is like "buying your friends" couldn't have been more wrong. Or, maybe it was the best money I ever spent? Ha ha.... whatever it may be, I love my life-long friends.
The mother of my friend was an interesting woman. She was VERY into appearances and very pretentious. She'd be the first to tell you that about herself. And this funeral, which she had planned every detail for herself, was in true Jane form. OVER THE TOP. The luncheon was at the Dearborn Country Club. Elaborate appetizers, Surf and Turf for lunch and even a party favor (yes you read that correctly) for every guest that attended. Jane knew exactly the way she wanted her "last event" to be!
On Friday, at the wake, my friend asked us to stay until the end. They had to say their last goodbye to her mom that night, since it was going to be a close casket funeral. She wanted us to be around afterwards, so we all went across the street to a place called the Double Olive (martini bar). Well I was EXHAUSTED at that point, so I went and got a cup of coffee. Big mistake, I was up until 3:15am that night. Granted I was drinking wine with my friends up until that point, but wow. I cannot remember the last time I stayed up that late, unless it was with one of my kids. When the alarm went off at 8am the next morning, I could barely function. Holy hang over.
Oh, and want to hear what I said at the luncheon? We walked in the room and I saw all the appetizers. I hadn't eaten dinner the night before, and had only a protein bar for breakfast that morning. So all the food looked amazing! So I say, loudly, to my sister standing next to me "WOW, look at all that yummy food! I must have died and gone to Heaven!" Yes people, I actually said that... at a funeral. They should never let me out of the house. Only me.
Ok, I'm mad behind at work, so I will end it here. Glad to be back though!
-V
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