Thursday, October 27, 2011

Evil... Just Evil

Do you know who is evil? The people who write those annoying songs for The Wiggles that I sing in my head ALL DAY LONG at work. I've officially turned into that mom.  That mom who I used to make fun of before I had kids... super.


Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Glorious Wednesday!

Yey! My husband came home last night! Whoot whoot! SO happy! I am going to take full advantage of having a few days to be able to run errands alone. What a rare treat!

Ok, so this cute little cat (probably only around 6 months old) has been hanging around our backyard lately. He's sooooooo cute and very friendly. Its a Calico cat, very pretty coloring, and no collar on. I want to keep it. I already have 2 cats that take WAY too much of my time up. But one of the cats is so old, I doubt he will make it another year. So we'd need to get another eventually to keep my other kitty company. Am I crazy to take on yet another responsibility with a husband who isn't home much? Hell yeah I am... but I still want to keep it. We'll see... my husband seems receptive to the idea. Who knows, maybe I'll change my mind in a few...

Other than that, I'm plugging along on trying to eat well. I haven't been tracking my calorie's all that much this past week. I'm still doing ok eating wise, but it's a slippery slope with me, and I need to get back on and start tracking. Its way too easy for me to get out of control otherwise. I always use my husband traveling as an excuse, but I need to stop this. He will always be traveling, so I need to find a way to stick to this whether he's around or not.

So... back to this cat thing..... I still want to keep it!  And now I'm thinking of super cute names. NEED TO STOP!


PS: I've been trying for THREE days to watch last week's episode of The Ringer, and EVERYTIME I fall asleep... is that telling me something? I might need to give up this show.

The Peanut Butter Diaries

Hello from the A side of things.  It's been a bit but it’s not for lack of wanting to post, it's due to lack of time.  I forgot how much being pregnant WIPES you clean of all energy.  I work full time, am a mom to a 3.5yo and I run our home - I'm finding that sometimes its A LOT to deal with and am having mini break downs and freak-out sessions.  Good times.  I am learning to be OK with saying no or letting my husband go to the grocery store for our family (and even do the laundry, baby steps - no pun intended). 
The other thing I am getting used to is eating 24/7.  I have gone 3 years and have been really good (for the most part).  Even when I slip during the week I can typically get back on track.  Now, not so much.  If I don’t eat, I feel like I am going to puke.  Having to work all day I cannot afford to be sick or down and out, even for an hour....and so I eat.  And eat and eat and eat.  Hence the creation of "the peanut butter diaries" - my new obsession is peanut butter.  Specifically peanut butter with butter and peanut butter with bananas on toast - just finished one in fact.  I can eat spoons of the glorious peanut paste and never fill up.  It's looking like baby #2 will have my passion for food, great.
I will admit I am trying very hard to make "smart" decisions.  I will grab an apple or a banana before I grab chips, that’s a big deal for me.  I did eat more of the Trader Joes soy ice cream (well, being honest I finished the carton...) but I am trying to make that a rare occurrence.  7 weeks and 3 days...tick tock goes the pregnancy clock.  Wish me luck and strength!
 - a

Monday, October 24, 2011

In the Home Stretch

Well I survived the weekend. Actually, it was pretty fun. My kids were soooooo good! Seriously, I think they may have been someone else's kids, they were THAT good. Friday, we headed over to my parents house and with my sister's two kids there, it was like a daycare. Everyone was running around and playing. It was fun but sooooo loud. Everyone slept that night and Saturday my mom and I took the kids to Java Jungle to run around. That place was crazzzzzzy, but fun. Saturday night both kids slept again for me! I got to watch a movie in bed with my mom (a rare treat), while my dad was watching football. All in all it was a great weekend. I'm very glad I went. I really didn't want to go because I thought it was going to be so much work. But things were pretty easy actually.

Eating-wise I did much better than the previous weekend. But like I said earlier, that was more because I didn't have time to eat. Literally on Friday, I had a banana until dinner, that's it. So not good.

I still have 3 more days until my husband comes home. These last days are always the hardest because I'm starting to get tired of being alone. Sleep deprivation is starting to catch up to me too. My 11-month-old woke up at 5am for some reason this morning, so I'm trying to stay awake at work today. Thank God for coffee.

The suck thing is, is that my husband comes home for 2 days and then leaves to go hunting on Friday... I really hate hunting season. Really, really, really hate it. I never see my husband because he's either flying or hunting. He does take the kids with him up north sometimes to stay at his mom's while he hunts, so it's a nice break for me. But sometimes it would be nice to actually hang out with my husband... call me crazy. Oh well, one more month and then it will be over for another year.

Here's hoping to a good week!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

And So It Begins...

Well my husband left this morning for a SEVEN day trip. Yes, I said seven days. Normally he only goes on these seven-day trips once a month. But because of several pilots quitting over the past few weeks, this will be his second seven-day trip of the month. Lucky us. So it's going to be a long, lonely week/weekend for me.

Tomorrow is my son's 3-year check up and then I think we will head to my parents for the weekend because they haven't seen the kids in a while. My parents house is the least most, child proofed house on the entire plant. There is glass everything, fake plants, statues, and always a random screw lying around on the ground. So as nice as it will be to be among other people for the weekend, it will be a lot of work for me making sure my 11-month-old won't hurt/eat/break something. But the kids and grandparents will have fun and that's all that matters.

I'll also be dealing with the same issues I did last weekend, which is the whole eating bad when I'm not home thing. I'm going to be much better this time. Probably more for the fact that I won't have time to eat bad because of chasing my kids around, than the fact that I have more willpower this time. But whatever works, right? Though I'm sure I'll make up the calories by the amount of wine I will need to drink at night to try and relax after all of this.

Wish me luck on surviving a daddy-free weekend. If you don't hear from me by Monday, that probably means I've collapsed out of sheer exhaustion.


Monday, October 17, 2011

I Suck...

Well I ate enough to feed a small village this past weekend. SUPER. I went and stayed with my mom this weekend, while my dad was out of town. I started off Friday doing pretty well. But then we went out to dinner and I had a cheeseburger and fries for dinner.... oh it was sinful it was so good. THEN, Saturday I started off very well, determined not to go down this road again. But then lunch was a disaster and so on and so on. Soooooooo, needless to say, I probably gained back most of that 7lbs I lost. I couldn't even get on that scale this morning because it was too depressing. But I'm back on track today!

I have no idea why I'm so bad when I am traveling. I have the hardest time being good. Something about being away from home makes me want to eat horribly. Another thing on the long list of items I need to work on.

Other than the food thing, I had SUCH a great girls weekend with my mom. We watched movies (saw 50/50, SO GOOD!) and drank wine, it was fun. I missed my kids a ton, but with my husband having a 7-day trip starting on Wednesday, it was a much needed rest before the long stretch I've got coming up with the kids alone.

I also got to spend time with my nephew who is only 2 weeks old. He is such a sweetie pie and it was fun to see him again.

Ok, so fresh start for me this week, getting back on track!


Friday, October 14, 2011

Trader Joes, We Are in A Fight

Between Chocolate Covered Potato Chips (yes, the exist and yes they are TO DIE FOR) and this Cherry Chocolate Chip ice cream Trader Joes and I may come to blows.  Needless to say I am having a hard time saying no.  I have done very well considering my issues with food but still, I need to make sure to keep things in check. 
I head to the Dr. first thing Monday morning and I will be weighed, hmph.  That should probably knock me back into reality but until then...

Thursday, October 13, 2011

A Little Bit More About Me

Besides my quest to stop stuffing my face with food, I do have other interests and things going on in my life. I have been married to my wonderful husband for 6 years now. He is a pilot and travels A LOT. It can be very hard sometimes. Before we had kids, I used to love having a few days to myself. But now that we have 2 kids? Not-so-much... I love my children dearly, but after a few days alone with them, 24/7, with no break, I'm about ready to lose my mind. Because of this, I work part time. I'm a graphic designer. Working part time helps me keep my sanity and gives me a reason to get out of my pajamas and put makeup on 3 days a week. I love it. Its the perfect balance of being home and getting me out of the house and among the land of the adults. I know this job won't last forever, so I'm trying to enjoy it while it lasts. Part time job are hard to come by in my industry, and are usually the first to be let go, so I am appreciative of what I have.

I met A while we were in college. She and I were in the same sorority. I got her a job at a restaurant I was waitressing at, and we've been besties ever since. After college and scoring very low-paid and very low-on-the-totem-pole jobs, we moved to a "happening" town in Michigan where all the "cool" young 20-something's were moving to. And boy, did we think we were cool. Handing out our business cards to anyone we met at the bars. I can only imagine the laughter behind our backs as we walked away. But I have to say, I think I had more fun in those early 20 years than I ever have had in my life. Working, drinking, smoking, boys... what fun. After a few years of complete chaos, A got a job offer in another state and moved away from me. It was very hard and I was very sad to see her go. But I would say we are as close now, after living apart for the last 10 years, than we ever have been. Through marriages, children, miscarriages and more drama than I care to remember, we've always been there for each other.

I am very excited to say she is coming to visit me next month with her son B. She has not met my baby daughter yet (who will be one next month!), and I am very excited for the two to meet. It should be a fun visit and I cannot wait to catch up and see our boys play (they are both 3). I am also sooooo excited that she is having another baby. Selfishly I want her to have a girl like I did, so we can be the same. Weirdly, I think she will, since A's and my life, always seem to mirror each other.

Thanks for going down memory lane with me,

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Changes and Challenges?

Our wonderful blogging life of 2 best friends trying to lose weight together now takes a dramatic turn.  Hello all, it's A and I am preggers!  Can I accept a challenge of 200 sits up while growing our newest addition?  I will have to google it and find out. 
So V - STAY TUNED - I may or I may not accept -  but not by default.
Here are things that I will not be doing this go round:
  • 1st off, I will NOT be gaining 60lbs
  • I will not be eating doughnuts and butter
  • I will not be eating Granny Smith apples and Carmel Apple sauce
  • and finally, the day I find out the sex of this baby I will NOT be buying a bear claw the size of my head and eating the entire thing in celebration of said sex.
I won’t say it’s been easy so far, now that I know I have a little more leeway in the way of food (I mean, I am eating for two) I have possibly picked up an extra item or two...but I am aware - and that’s a start.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Dear Co-Worker/Cubemate...

Humming all day is NEVER ok!

Thank you, V

I Hate You M&M's

Ok, so obviously I don't have a lot of will power. Obviously, or I wouldn't be in this position. So we had the big bag of M&M's left over from my son's 3rd birthday party last month. And every night this week, they've been calling my name around 10pm. Finally, last night, I had to throw the entire bag out. And not just throw the bag away, I had to literally dump the bag upside down, in the trash... otherwise I could totally see me going in and taking it out. So, they are gone. I'm sure my husband will eventually ask me what happened to them and then I'll get "the look" from him. "The look" that says 'why can't you just not eat them?' 

See my husband is in fabulous shape. He works out twice a day when he's on the road. Eats healthy 99% of the time. And he just doesn't get why I constantly go on these crazy diets, fail, and then whine to him. He loves to say, "why can't you just eat healthy?"  BUGS ME! I DON'T KNOW WHY I CAN'T JUST EAT HEALTHY.

Anyway, problem solved, M&M's are gone. Stupid M&M's....


Monday, October 10, 2011

I'm Challenging You, A!

Ok A, I've got a challenge for you. There is this site called

A and I previously started the 100 pushup one, but due to me straining my wrist, I had to stop (though once my wrist heals, I will do it again). So I'm thinking a change is in order and we do the situp challenge. It is a six week training program that will get us to complete 200 consecutive sit-ups. This is a bit sad for me, because before I had kids, I could do 500 situps at once. But none-the-less, you've got to start somewhere.

Challenge accepted, A?



I lost 7lbs over the past week and a half. I'm super pumped. This is after chowing down on M&M's at 10pm last night... WTF? I was so good this past weekend. I didn't eat the pizza that was served at my friends house on Saturday. At the pumpkin patch yesterday, I didn't eat the donuts that everyone else was eating, and then I go and F it up by eating M&M's at 10pm last night. I don't get me sometimes. But having seen the 7lb drop this morning, I think I'll be fine and that will be me the little push I needed.


Friday, October 7, 2011

Day 1. Done.

A big step for A today, I not only input all of my food into yesterday but I woke up and did it again today.  While this may seem lame to the general public it a BIG step in my continuous battle in wrapping my head BACK around getting on track.  The flip has been switched, I am in GO mode - just need to stay there. 
Keep the positive vibes-a-comin...A

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Well Hello Food, I Wish I Could Say I've Missed You...

I'm "A" and I'm officially unhealthy and flabby.  It sucks to say it out loud, but its true.

My entire existence has been one long struggle with food.  I've weighed everything from 118 (adult lowest) - 187 (day I gave birth).  My approach to 9 out of 10 things is EXTREME black and white, do A - you will invariably get B.  X will ALWAYS = Y in my book.  It keeps me in control and I am in control of everything (or so I like to think).  Simple.  Eat the m&m's my son was given, BAM weight to the hips.  Drink the extra glass of wine, KAZAMM extra cellulite for my thighs.  Thanks.  And yet here I am again, addressing the same issues I've fought throughout life.  But today it stops.

So here is what you need to know about me going forward.  The heaviest I’ve ever been was also the happiest day of my life – the day I gave birth to my son.  I used my pregnancy as the ultimate foodie experience.  I said no to NOTHING.  Ice Cream in the middle of the night?  Yep.  Donuts in the microwave covered in butter?  Sure did.  3 pieces of work birthday cake – you betcha, add it to my accomplished list.  When I came home from the hospital something clicked inside of me, I made the decision to NEVER again be large.  I went from a size 14-16 to a size 4 in 2 years.   For the first time in my life I did it the right way, I watched my calories – ate right – stopped wine – even worked out and I felt AMAZING. 

Yet here I am again.  I will refer to this stage as the “lifestyle creep”.  Because I have kept the weight off for a solid 3 years I have started to get comfortable and being totally honest, a little cocky.  I am back to drinking wine every weekend, never counting calories and because I walk our dog daily (well, most days) I think I can say yes to things I have for so long been able to keep at bay.  Lifestyle creep back in full effect. 

My wake-up call came Monday when my bestie V, who I rely on for everything, told me she was leaving me to correct her weight issues – on. her. own.  Understand, up until this point, we’ve struggled with weight – together. We’ve done food contests, workout contests and 1-bazillion diets together.  We’ve struggled with everything together and immediately my only child sense of abandonment kicked into full gear. I finally admitted to myself what was really going on and realized it was time to get BACK in control of my life before it spiraled too far down.

And here we are.  We’re now bloggers.  And I think, for the first time, in a very long time, we’re on a very healthy and good path for success.  Admittedly and selfishly much to my enjoyment – we’re doing it together. 

I’m 5’1.5” and my goal weight is 118.  I have struggled over the past 8 months with the same 10 lbs and I am determined to get them off. 

Here we go, wish us luck.

Here Goes Nothing...

Hello, I'm V and I’m officially fat. There, I said it. I know it’s not politically correct to say this, but it’s the truth. Sure, I can blame the fact that I have a 3-year-old son and a 10-month-old daughter. I have a husband who travels constantly (he’s a pilot). And I could sit here and whine how I have no time to work out and make healthy food for myself. But that’s not it. See, while I’m hands down the heaviest I’ve ever been, I’ve always had issues with my weight. I love food. Love it! I could eat all day. I don’t have an underlying issue that I use food to cope with. I just love to eat. And I love to eat bad foods. At 5 feet 9 inches, I can pack the food away! I think people would be shocked at how much I actually eat. Being tall I used to be able to hide it pretty well. But now after 2 kids, there is no hiding it anymore.

I’ve tried all the diets. Atkins, South Beach, Weight Watchers, Dukan Diet, counting calories. And when I’ve followed them, sure I lost weight. But as with anything, old habits came back and the weight crept back on. So, I’m not going on a diet. I’m making a life style change, here and now! I will do this by watching my daily calorie intake, since my portions are out of control. But that’s it. I will try and exercise when I can. But with my husband gone a lot and two kids hanging on me 24/7, I know I just won’t be able to work out as much as I used too. So, really it’s going to be all about the food and keeping track of what I put in my mouth.

See, while I love to eat, I do love to work out. I love to bike, run, and lift weights. My goal is to do a sprint triathlon by the end of next summer. The problem, is that I don’t have the time to do this that I used too. Sure after my kids go to bed I could workout at 8pm. But let’s be honest, after being home with my kids all day, with no break (especially when my husband is out of town), I just want to chill. I know this is a problem and something else I need to work on. But first things first, let’s start with the food. Usually when I’m good with the food, I’m good with the working out.

So since nothing has worked for me long term, my best friend A and I thought we'd start this blog to post about our weightloss struggles. I’m sure no one really wants to hear me whine all day about how hungry I am. But I just feel like if I have to write about my weight loss, the good and bad, maybe I’ll be more apt to stick to it this time. It’s almost like being accountable for my actions, just anonymously.

My goal is to be 160lbs. I was that weight at my sister’s wedding 4.5 years ago, and I think that is an attainable goal. So by using to track my calories I get 1,655 a day. I get more if I exercise, so that’s good. So today is day #1 on this long long long journey of losing 40lbs. says I should reach my goal weight by April 3, 2011. And that’s with no screw ups, so its going to be a while. But I’m ready to do this, I’m ready to be healthy and I’m ready to feel good about myself again.

Wish me luck! V
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