Monday, May 14, 2012

Welcome to my Pity Party

So Mother's Day kind of sucked. I mean, it's not like I thought that it was going to be this grand day with all these presents lavished on me. My husband is out of town for a month... I get it. But I still thought it would be better than what is was. When you have a 1 and 3 year old, it's not like they know it's Mother's Day. I can't expect them to make me a card or anything. They can't say "hey mom, happy mother's day!" And husband was gone, so it's not like I was going to get breakfast in bed or anything. But, going on facebook and seeing all the photos of all my friends with their new jewelry, flowers, gifts, brunches, etc., was hard. I didn't think I'd feel jealousy like that, but I did. So then I started to have a pity part for myself. I was pretty down. And as much as I know husband wasn't in town, I just feel like he could have least sent me flowers or a card. I mean even just a crappy homemade card would have been nice. He called to say Happy Mother's Day, but that was it. And especially with me being all by myself, it would have been nice to have something...

I love my husband, but he just sucks at holidays, birthdays, etc. He always has and I still get disappointed for some reason. Even though I know this about him. But again, I guess I just thought that since he was gone, he'd do something nice for me. And I'm not gonna lie, I'm a bit pissed. I think it was kinda shitty, to be honest. But there's not much else I can do but move on.

On a positive note, I did go to my sister-in-law's for a bbq yesterday. My in-laws were there also, so that was fun. And I did get a homemade card from my niece, so that was nice. At least someone thought of me... lol.

My in-laws took S home with them. She will be there until Thursday. That also sort of set me off in a bit of depression. As much as it was my idea to send her off, I was just so down yesterday, it just added to it. I miss her like crazy! But it was nice to have some one-on-one time with J. We played on the swings, did play-doh on the deck. We can never do play-doh anymore because S is always eating it and throwing it. So that was nice. We watched Bubble Guppies in my bed after his bath, which was also nice. Another thing we can't really do with S because she's a bit of a spaz and won't sit still. My bed is really, really tall, and I'm always afraid she's going to fall off of it.

So here's to a better day. My feelings are still hurt and I'm missing my girl, but I'm going to make the best of this. Only a week and a half until husband comes home and then I get to go to Atlanta and see A for her birthday/housewarming party. Whoo!



  1. My husband is lousy at birthdays and such too. He was home but didn't get me anything yesterday. My kids were sweet though, with lots of hugs. Sorry you had a rough day :-(

  2. You know, it's funny how much we have in common... our children are about roughly the same age, and my partner Peter is also away A LOT (and the Graphic Designing too, how odd...). I know how you feel when you look at other people's lives and wish that yours resembled their "normal" life. I spent the majority of the day yesterday alone with the girls until the late afternoon. I feel ya sister!

  3. Oh, sweetie. The week before most 'girly' holidays (Valentine's day, Mother's day, etc.) I go out and buy MYSElF flowers and maybe an inexpensive pair of earrings.

    I don't make a big deal out of it like "Waaahwaaah! I have to by my OWN presents!" but just... I know that my hubs is sometimes not all that on top of things, and I want to feel valued. Even if just by myself. And then I try VERRRY hard not to feel sorry for myself and all martyr-ish.

    It is what it is. I also fill my OWN christmas stocking with goodies all wrapped up pretty. Yes, I do. And it's totally fun to shop for them, wrap them, and then OPEN them to the amazement of the hubs and kids.

    ((hugs to you, sweet lady)) Happy Mom's day.

    1. you know, that's a good idea Kate. I think I may have to start doing that too. Who says I can't buy myself flwoers for Mother's Day? :)


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