Small Village... Fed!

Well I ate enough yesterday to feed a small village... yeah.. no food issues here.

I had a total V day yesterday. I've been home nonstop with the kids for 2 weeks now, with husband traveling a ton. So I decided to pretty much get out of the house yesterday and have a "me" day.

First I had my personal training session at 10:30am. She kicked my a##! Like I cannot even bend over right now, my abs are so sore. So the day started out right.

But then we went to Noodles & Co. for lunch. And I had a HUGE bowl of pesto pasta with shrimp. Holy crap, do you KNOW how long it's been since I had white pasta? Forever and a day and it was so yummy, I do not even feel guilty about it. It rocked my world (again, no food issues here). Want to know the sad thing? When I used to work over in that area, I'd go to Noodles & Co. several times a week and get that exact meal for lunch... ugh! And I wonder why I gained so much weight.

Anyhoo, then we went and saw Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. AWESOME movie! I had a popcorn as big as my head with butter (oh, just wait, it gets even better). Though I didn't have the entire popcorn, I had about 3/4 of it and only stopped because I was literally going to puke if I had anymore.

THEN, after the movie we went to Culvers and I had a blizzard (chocolate ice cream with peanut butter cups, in case you are wondering) . Yeah, you thought I was kidding when I said I had enough food to feed a small village, didn't you? Nope... totally did.

It was a fun day. I had some 'me' time, ate some grubby food which I haven't had in ages. But I definitely felt it last night. My stomach was just yuck and I was very sluggish. I don't miss feeling that way. I don't miss the food guilt and feeling so tired, and not having any energy. So while it wasn't great that I consumed that much food, it's a nice reminder when I'm starving today, as to why I am doing this. Why I am changing my lifestyle to be a healthier me.

I am 2lbs away from my first goal weight. Whoot! (though after yesterday, maybe not). When losing weight I always do it in 10lb increments. My first goal is to get back into the 80's. Then it will be the 70's, and then finally the 60's. So I am 2lbs away from the 80's. I haven't been in the 80's since after I had J, so I'm VERY ready to be back in that bracket again and to have my first goal completed.

A neighbor of mine, her husband has colon cancer. They are getting a group of people together on March 17th for the Irish Jig 5K run, in his honor. So I'm all signed up. This will be a good prelude to the River Bank 10K Run in May and then my sprint triathalon in July. AND it's for a great cause. So I need to get my butt outside and running. While I could do the 5K right now, I'm pretty slow, so I'd like to speed it up a bit.

Husband leaves tomorrow and doesn't return until Saturday. So it's gonna be a looooong week. I am going to try and squeeze in many workouts as I can. Even if it's just my 20 minute, 30 Day Shred.

Here's to a great week and getting closer to my 1st weight goal. Only 2 more pounds, I can DO this!

-V

PS: Happy 15 month birthday to my darling little girl, S.

Food Log 2/20/12:
Breakfast:
Protein Shake

Snack:
Almonds
5 mini peppermint patties (need... to... stop)
4 pieces of cheese
J's Fruit Snacks

Lunch:
Egg whites, mixed with spinach and turkey sausage

Dinner:
Italian Soup
Wine

Workout:
None, hit that damned snooze button

Just Call Me 'Selfish Spice'

I'm starting to go a bit stir crazy. I've been home/traveling with my kids for pretty much 2 weeks straight now. I worked only one day last week and one day this week. I really cannot wait to go back to my normal 3-day work week schedule. I'm just not cut out to be a stay-at-home-mom. I bow down to the moms who can, you are truly selfless people. Me? Not so much  :)  j/k.   I know I am really lucky to have the best of both worlds by working part time. I get out of the house, but still have tons of time at home with my kids. It really works for me and makes me a better mom.

I was able to get a in a 3 mile run in this morning before husband had to fly. So that felt good. I haven't run in about a month so it was much needed. I started off very strong, but the last mile was rough. I am going to be running the 10K in the Grand Rapids River Bank Run in May, so I need to start gearing up for that. I usually only run about 3 miles, so I need to step it up and soon.

Going to see The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo this weekend. I finished the book on Wednesday. It was really, really good. Like I said in an earlier post, if you can get past the first 100 pages (or 2 disks) it rocks!! I'm very excited to see the movie. Turning down the sinfully smelling, buttery popcorn might be a bit harder... .grrrrrr. Why does everything have to revert back to food with me?

Ok, kids are napping so I need to be productive, have a great weekend!

-V

Food Log 2/17/12:
Breakfast:
Eggs with spinach, mozz cheese and turkey sausage

Snacks:
Almonds
J's Sweethearts candies (I need to throw this V Day sh*t out!)

Lunch:
Cheese Quesadilla on whole wheat tortilla, black olives and salsa

Carol Brady... Just with Wine

So my trainer canceled on me AGAIN yesterday morning. I was none too happy, to say the least. I mean, I'm not so angry at the cancelation part, the girl has a hurt back after all. But my session was for 8am and she called me at 6:45am to cancel. Which of course woke me, my husband and little S (she's in the room right next to us) up. And it was my day to sleep in (as much as you can "sleep in" with little kids). So we were all up nice and early.

Luckily I had gone to Zumba the night before (that's 2 workouts for me on Tuesday... yeah, I rock). And because my husband's flight wasn't until 5:30pm yesterday, I was able to get in a 3-mile run, outside.

It's been a weird winter here in Michigan this year. While we were pounded with snow the past 2 weeks, it's all gone again. Not that I'm complaining, I am loving the lack of snow and the fact that I've been able to run outside so much this winter. But it's strange none-the-less.

 I switched my run up yesterday. Instead of just running 3 miles, like I always do. Or trying those intervals. I decided to run a mile, speed-walk a half mile, run another mile, and speed-walk another half mile. From what I've been reading lately, it really doesn't matter how you get your miles in. As long as you do it. You can walk, run, sprint, jog... whatever. Just get them in and chances are you will lose the same amount of weight. And by constantly switching it up, you are making your body work harder, plus you aren't getting bored. So I think every time I get to run, I'm going to do something different. I'm trying to get it out of my head that stopping for a brief walk = failure.            

I'm in a serious need for a day off of working out today. I've worked out 7 days in a row now and I'm hurting a bit. But I won't be able to workout Friday or Saturday (since I'll be in Detroit, visiting my parents) so I need to squeeze one more workout in tonight.

So hubby is gone for 7 days **sigh**. Ahhhh, the life of a Pilot's wife. The first night he's gone is always the loneliest. Not sure why, I guess it's that I get so used to him being home and when you've got 7 long days looming ahead of you, it gets me down a bit. But I am determined to be upbeat and happy. And not spend the entire time yelling at my kids. I'm so going to "Carol Brady" myself this week! (along with several a glass of wine)

I'm finding it next to impossible to stay under 40 grams of carbs a day, which is what my trainer recommended for me. I mean I'm not even eating any bread or anything and I'm still going over. My protein shake alone, takes almost all my carbs up for the day. I just don't get how people do this. But I think if I'm just watching my intake of them, like I've been doing, even if I'm going over a bit, should help. Though I'm getting reeeeeeal sick of eating egg whites for lunch.

 Ok, NEED to get some work done here, since I guess that's why I'm actually at work.


-V

"If Not Now, When?"

Last week, A sent me the link to this blog. It was about this woman, who was a life-long over eater. She always dieted, lost the weight, gained it back, the same vicious cycle that we can all relate to. Anyway one day she said she went to an Overeaters Anonymous meeting and there was a woman speaking and she said to the group that every time she felt the need to binge she'd try to stop herself by thinking, "if not now, when?"  When was she going to stop this, when was she going to get healthy? So last week I printed that quote out and I have it taped up in my cube at work and I'm going to make one for me at home to put on my fridge. Because if I don't do this weight loss thing now, at 37 years old, when the hell am I ever going to do this? I've spent soooooooooooo many years NOT doing it. So it's now or never.

Anyway, great quote, I love it and I've already found myself using it when I want to eat bad. So this will be my motto for the New Year. "If Not Now, When?" So thanks for passing that on, A.

Wow... that was awful deep for the first blog of the week, wasn't it? 

We had a wonderful Christmas! The kids were in Heaven, which is all that matters. They just love being surrounded by family. They love to go to Grandma's house, it was just so great watching them bask in all of that. The driving was a bit much for a 2.5 day span, but oh well.

My husband loved his recordable alarm clock. It took J and I several tries to get him to say "wake up daddy" on que. But we finally got it.

Yesterday I had that massage party, which was also great. It was fun to see friends I hadn't seen in years. The kids were surprisingly good. Especially since it took us over 2 hours to get there with all the snow that was falling yesterday. Ugh, I'm already over winter! The way home, not so good. S screamed for about an hour and I almost lost my mind. Literally... LOST... MY... MIND. Little did I know, that she had pooed (sorry if that was TMI) and that's why she was screaming. Good times....

I did get the best massage I ever had though. This lady was wonderful. I don't like a super hard massages and most masseuse's even when I tell them this, still do it too hard. But this lady rocked and it was perfect.

I'm ready to get back on track this week with food and exercise. My husband is in New Mexico until Friday night, so the workouts aren't going to be there much this week. Just whatever I can slip in between working and taking care of the kids. I am going to try to run this weekend if possible. I am really loving running outside this winter. I've never done that before. I've always just stopped running outside once it got cold. But with the right running gear, its really not bad. I mean I ran 4 miles on Friday! How awesome was that? So I think I'm going to keep it up, as long as we don't get a mountain of snow.

Ok, I NEED to get some work done here...

-V

Just Sayin'

I ran 4 miles before we left for up north today.... holla!

-V

So... Um... Yeah...

... I sorta ate like sh*t this past weekend. I know, I know, stop rolling your eyes at me. Yes, I know I was doing sooooooo well. And then I just screwed up. BUT, but, but, I am back on track today. The old V would have just said F-it and gone down into spiral of bad eating. (btw I have a total truck driver mouth, but I try to be good on this blog).  But I am not going to. I am back on track today.

I did end up running 3 miles yesterday, to try and combat a bit of the eating. I will workout today again. I figure it's the only thing I can do at this point to try and not gain all the weight back.

I swear I'm like an addict sometimes, it's the only way I can explain it. It's like I get a taste of the "good/bad food" and I just can't stop. I just keep going and going... man I have issues.

Other than the whole food snafu, I had a great weekend. We had a good time in Detroit for my niece's birthday party. I ended up only taking my 3-year-old with me because my daughter got a stomach bug on Thursday night and I didn't want to infect the entire house. So only having one kid was like the easiest thing in the world. I can't believe I ever used to complain when I only had one.

My kids went up north with my husband yesterday, so I had an actual day to myself. It was awesome, I got so much stuff done. Mainly wrapping Christmas gifts and just getting caught up on life. Though I have to admit by the end of the day, when I had all my stuff done, I was almost bored. I'm not quite sure how to relax anymore, I'm so used to being busy 100% of the time. I get one more night tonight to myself before they come back tomorrow morning.

I ended up doing 321 Sit-ups last week. They are getting HARD. I can only imagine what this week will be like. So here's to getting back on track this week...

-V

Seriously.... Can't Move.... Ouch

Soooooooooo, went for that run yesterday. It went well... but I seriously am SO sore today. How pathetic is that? Now, something you should know about me. When I do something, I do it like a million percent. There is no middle road for me. I'm either "on" or I'm "off," hardcore. So the smart person, not having had run for a while, would have done a nice slow jog to test the waters. Me? Yeah, I ran hard and long. Which is what I used to do when I was in shape, but is pretty hard when you are out of shape. So I'm definitely going to be feeling it for a few days. But I'm glad I did it and will continue to do so.

Anyway, Sunday starts my 19 lb weight loss challenge with my husband. www.loseit.com says I get 1,600 calories a day to lose the weight by then. So I am super pumped about this. This is really the nudge I needed to get back on the wagon again. Especially with Thanksgiving and Christmas coming up, it's just so easy to pack it on.

And for the most fun news, A gets here tomorrow with her son! I'm getting super excited. I'm happy I get to spend the first night with my kids still gone, so I can actually pay attention to her and her son. Because once my kids get home on Friday, they will be up my butt.

Also my precious little girl's 1st birthday is on Saturday. I cannot believe it's been a year already. I felt like with my son the year went by super slow, but with my daughter it flew by. We are having a family party on Saturday (minus my parents who feel like it's more important to attend the U of M football game, than to come to her party... that's another story for another day). But it should be a fun-filled day with lots of family and a few friends to celebrate.

V

Reeeeeelaxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

So I know I should be happy having the house to myself. I mean all I seem to do on here is bitch and moan about how busy I am taking care of 2 kids... but I miss my babies!

You would think that I would have had the BEST sleep in the world last night... but I kept waking up listening for my kids, forgetting momentarily that they weren't there. I did that like a billion times. It's hard for me to relax because I'm just used to going and going and going. I think it's going to take a bit for me to remember how to relax again.

Oh, and for the 2nd time in a week, I had a dream about The Wiggles last night. WTF? And in both dreams, I kissed one of The Wiggles (at least it was the same guy in both dreams). I need serious help I think.

I am going to go for a run tonight after work. Its going to be 60 today, probably one of the last warm days we are going to have here in Michigan. So I am going to take advantage of it. If you don't hear from me tomorrow, that means I collapsed from being so out of shape. Wish me luck!

V